fReNLy fR3aK

have you ever settle yourself down and have some moments all by yourself, think and ponder upon some questions and mysteries ? - I have. -

have you ever felt that you are alone even though you have many amazing and great(im serious..) people surrounding you everyday ?even at work, at home,in school, in a public area, in your room, at a party, in church or at the library ? - I have..am now..-

have u ever felt like you are in the middle of nowhere but you are always going here n there, attending to the many hussle of life ? have you ever felt as if you are hanging from the silence of brokenness ? - I have -

how about the time you felt like you want to spill every deep hurting secret out but for one moment, you paused,took a deep breath and tell yourself " NO! no one should know about this..this is too much!unfair for them..i can’t….." ? -always-

do you recall the time you feel like jumping off a building or stand at KLCC just to scream your lungs out ?but you cant because a little voice inside of you stops you…

How about a new heavier responsibility and higher expectation being places on your shoulders when you didnt expect it AT ALL ?? And you keep on telling yourself that you can do this WELL…and make other proud / happy of / for you..and another second, you feel so weak all over ! tears rolls down your cheek *blink tears away*puts up that fake cheerful face to hide your weakness*

With added frustration and doubts, you feel like you wanna quit just like that! But the other half of you convinced you to stay and take on the challenge, to be someone better, to walk this earth as a more mature person…

Have you ever been in those situations?

i have….i am now…

**sorry for the serious post i wrote**

its been a long time since i last updated my blog. no particular reasons for that just .. lazy..and encuontered a number of problems when trying to save my post. so, in summary of everything that i wanna put in words..

yes, i had loads of fun in Hanoi, Vietnam! there are tough moments where i really really miss home, family, friends, YC n my soft-toys alot !!thats because i havent been away from home that long before..to add to it, its my first time not celebrating Christmas with my family n friends.sigh! YC RALLY also i missed it man!! ishh….!!sobs! but i heard bout the many girls Aaron sat with, the amazing dance YC performed, and also the one-on-one outtings with girls (ahem!) by someone, u know who you are..dont deny it!oh man! wish i was there to witness everything!!oh well! i came back with a cold, terrible cough, a lil sorethroat and MORE VOLCANOES on my face..thats because the air in Hanoi wasnt good..yea, it was winter but its super hazy, dusty and..umm..basically, the air isnt that good n clear as Malaysia’s. Matt said my voice changed when he heard my over the phone.sighh….!

31st december 2006 : went to 1st service in church. sat with Matt, my bro, Aaron and their friend, Julian..oh yes!my mom was there too.after service, i received a suprise call from Leighanne informing me that there was a meeting with Judah.rushed to the office right away for the meeting. after it, one of the leaders sent me home.yes, the meeting was a suprising one for me because i didnt expect the special announcement Judah told the 10 of us there.seriously, what he said was mind-blowing!!expecially for me. oh well!

for these few weeks of January, i have spent my everyday doing house chores! argh..yes, im getting sick of it. sorry mum! neway, i just got back from  YC  leaders retreat 07 in MBS Recreation and Training Centre in Rawang. Thats the place SU was suppose to have their outting last year but it didnt work out because the fees charged was way over the budget. The place was SUPERB !! it was GREAT !!there’s rock climbing(but no safety ropes), reflexology foot path, NS-like-obstacles, skating rings,golf course, SWIMMING POOL, gym, squash court(under renovation), cycling path, chalets(which look like dog kennel, thats wat ppl say), indoor basketball court, indoor badminton court, ping pong court etc. my point is the place is beautiful! all the leaders were suppose to leave at bout 7pm but they left at 8pm.i followed in Rose’s van which left church at 5pm.we arrived there earlier and guess what we saw? 2 RAINBOWS!! its was so pretty!!! the 3 guys went to play basketball and the 5 girls played UNO in the dorm (40girls to 1 bathroom in the dorm).in the third round of UNO, the funny thing is i owe Rose an apology!! so sorry Rose!!(i kept on putting draw Fours and Draw Twos for her! and she didnt have cards to defend herself..)sobs! SO SORRY ROSE!while playing, i was eatting this fruity chocolate when i suddenly got the heart shaped chocolate! yea..took a pic of it adi.hehe.

basically the whole retreat was great..it was on video too. Marcel explained the vision for YC 2007..Rose spoke on Sunday morning(21/1).hmmmm…did i mention that i had to use my handphone torchlight for the 4 guys who played basketball till 12.30am(the time i left earlier) in the super dark indoor basketball court? my battery kong out! sobs!the switch box was locked apparently. sigh.oh yes! during relax-n-rest time, alot of leaders played CaptainBall in the swimming pool in the RAIN!had loads of fun i guess coz some girls managed to push Ailleen and the guys threw Marcel into the pool..haha! 21/1 was Rose’s birthday..all of us prayed for her..when some girl leaders wiped whipped cream all over her..oh yea! that was a great movie to watch..poor Rose.. haha! i actually video-ed it but i pressed the wrong button..and so, i didnt save to video!! argh!!!! wasted !! sobs…

sorry daddy, brainwash project didnt work..i kena ‘attack’ back from her. sobs!

yes, im having the exam this Fri..hopefully i pass it because i dont wanna resit or pay to resit it !! pls pray for me..im scared and nervous!!

well, more things to come in the next update!c ya peeps around..

-mel-

Day 1 (

23/10/2006

)

Boarded Airasia plane in LCC Terminal at

3pm

to

Hanoi

,

Vietnam

. Arrived at about

6.30pm

(

5.30pm

:

hanoi

’s time) . the tour bus came to pick the 20 of us ..there were 3 familes ;my uncle’s, Aunt Fiona’s and Aunt Cam’s family. We went straight to the city to have our first Vietnamese dinner ! yippee..i tell you..the food there is totally different and their normal chilli is cili padi!! (according to my bro n uncle who are chilli lovers!)our first dinner consist of fried fish, lotsa raw vege with rice noodles ! the whole thing is cooked right in front of you on d table! Ahhh! I couldn’t forget the taste of it man!On our way back to the bus, we had to cross many busy roads where the traffic is also TOTALLY DIFFERENT from malaysia’s!Our tour guide, Mr.Dao told us that if we ever want to cross the roads of Vietnam, we MUSTN’T LOOK LEFT OR RIGHT to cross it !! believe it or not ! im serious!! No kidding..!but we mustn’t run either..just cross and act as if the road belongs to you !! cars, vans n motorbikes will know how to avoid you..and u don’t have to avoid them ..!therefore, in my own words. “CLOSE YOUR EYES AND CROSS THE ROADS!” ahahaha !it’s our first time getting ourselves lost in the city because the 20 of us were spilt to 10-10..so, I was left in the 2^nd half of the group where we had difficulty crossing the road n the next thing we knew,the other group n Mr.Dao was no where to be seen. So, we stood where we were hoping that the rest are aware of our absence n come find us soon..because we don’t wanna be lost on our first day in

Vietnam

!!

Next, the bus (only 25seater + driver) took us to the train station for a transfer to

Sa

Pa

mountain. We were all suppose to sleep in the cabins in the train the whole night ! It’s a 6 hour journey up the mountains !each cabin had 4 beds (crampy but still comfy..)and there were only 1 basin for simple clean-ups and the toilet is locked till morning!!did I mention that the basin was stucked, water cant flow smoothly and there were nearly 30 – 35 ppl waiting to use the basin before they could sleep ? ? yes.. that was the first night of our holidays. I slept with Aunt Karen ( from fga also), my bro n my cousin(Khang Yeon). To make others jealous, Josh( my genius bro) turned on music from his phone n put the volume to the max !seriously, other parent and children were wondering, “Why their cabin got free music wan ?? how come my cabin don’t have wan? ? “ the four of us had a good laugh !! I kinda like my bed.. hehe J

Day 2(24/12/2006)

We arrived at Sa Pa mountain at 5am (6am M’sia) and another bus took us straight to the Love Market to have our breakfast there..i had ( pancake with choc and Vietnamese fried rice). Then, we walked thru the whole market and guess what I saw ? PIGS !! yes..u read that right.. they sold animals there and they way they treat those animals are just so inhumane! They pull its legs n forced open its mouth  etc for checking..those pigs were crying man !! they look so sad !!! poor pigs ! btw, those pigs weren’t so big la ..n they don’t stink! n they aren’t pink in colour..they are in black! I even shot their  pic! Wanna see ? ? hehe! After that, we went straight to our hotel , Bamboo Sa Pa hotel to wash up. ( FINALLY!!) its because all of us haven’t had a bath for 1 ½ day ! n obviously we all stink !we all had our FIRST shower in Vietnam n the heater isn’t working well because its dependant on burning coal in a small container.but im glad the heater worked well when I was bathing (hehe)..u need special techniques to operate the shower +heater..and only smart ppl like me n my bro can do it ! ahahahah ! no la .. JUST KIDDING!

The whole afternoon was free for leisure and all of us decided to take a long walk around the whole town ( it’s kinda big for a town..but not so high tech like the city wan..).The traffic there were much safer!(Thank God!).did I mention that it was WINTER TIME  in Vietnam now ?? hehe ..lovely winter..but no snow wan.. the temperature there was about 15.8celcius on a daily basis.but up in the mountain,it was 5 – 10 celcius. I didn’t feel really cold la …till night time !oh yes! We had tea time at Victoria Hotel..(I had hot choc!perfecto!)..

Night came n all of us had our Christmas eve dinner at Victoria Hotel because there was a buffet dinner there..Rachel,Josh,Khang Yeon n I had the craziest dinner ever! Why ? because we had at least 3 rounds of food! I took some pic of the food we had..we tried their mushroom soup n it was so diff from our normal Campbell soup..i prefer Campbell soup btw(more creamy n thicker). Here’s something to be shocked at:if u ever notice..there are sections of various food during buffet (soup, rice, noodles, desserts, drinks..etc) right ? well, there was this particular section where they had LOTS N LOTS N LOTS of chocolate based desserts!there was this cottage made of chocolate (I hav d pic!) n a big long log-shaped choc cake ! n around that cake was easter-egg-chocs, santa-like-choc  n Christmas-tree-choc! N when EVERYONE  were looking at me,my bro, Khang Yeon n Rachel…we happily SAPU ALL THOSE CHOC DECORATIONS which weren’t meant to be eaten because it was suppose to be a DECORATION! The chef there was laughing at us man ! ahahahah ! I snapped a pic of the santa-like choc my bro took ..it was about 1 feet tall..hahaha! after dinner, the adults stayed back for Vietnamese coffee and chat…other kids played Uno..i,on the other hand, took a stroll by myself outside the hotel because the feeling of MISSING MY FRIENDS is very strong..seriously, I never felt this homesick before!!i stood at the balcony, had a view overlooking the beautifully decorated Victoria Church, listened to the song “Tonight” and had my first look up in the sky..the stars were beautiful!! It was stupendous….astounding! that whole scenario made me think of my friends more because of the stars which fitted the song “Tonight”.

Walked back to our hotel after realizing that Victoria Hotel don’t have a countdown to Christmas..sigh..it was chilly! N freezing for me …!it was around 3celcius that night !!!! super cool wei !! my bro n my cousin like to act macho only.. no jacket wan ! ishhh !

Day 3, (25/12/2006), Christmas Day !!

Rachel and I shared a room…n we both fell in love with the song ‘Tonight’. We woke up at 5am ( 6am M’sia). The sun is already shinning brightly..had breakfast at the hotel’s restaurant..everyone wore back their dirty clothes..that includes me..y ? because we were suppose to be trekking down the mountain, thru the villages,cross a wooden bridge to a waterfall, and back up the mountain to the bus waiting at the end of our trek..yup! that’s what we did the whole morning..we were expected to finish trekking in 2 hours but we finished 30mins earlier..its not simple trekking because there were A LOT OF STAIRS EVERYWHERE …up n down , up n down , up n down !! my leg’s muscle sore a lil.i was getting a lil pening lalat cos there were STAIRS EVERYWHERE ! WINDING STAIRS with cow/pig/buffalo/goat dunk everywhere ! ahaha..had a good time avoiding those stuff..lol! I have a video of the waterfall we stopped at..it was BEAUTIFUL  I tell u !! With the sun rays and the rainbow n the waterfall..it was seriously AWESOME…God’s creation is really very good I say .. VERY VERY VERY VERY GOOD! After trekking, the bus took us back near our hotel for lunch..where we had spring rolls n other food la .. the spring rolls in Vietnam is very famous actually.n their Rice Noodles, pho ( pronounced as fur) is seriously my FAVOURITE !!after lunch, we went back to the hotel to wash up where the 20 of us shared 2 bathrooms! We had to check out before we finish trekking. Bath time was long (u understand why rite?)..left Sa Pa mountain at around 5pm ( 6pm M’sia) for our train departure down the mountain at 9pm(10pm M’sia). The journey down the mountain took us 3 hours..we had dinner near the station at Emotion Café  where I started feeling drowsy and had motion sickness because of the rocky n unstable winding mud roads for 3 hours..here’s another ‘good’ story I have.. I ordered ‘bbq pork chop with fries and salad’(something diff this time I thought…), n my food came in last ! but nevermind , I don’t mind. However, I didn’t get what I ordered…because they gave me Pork Ribs!where I couldn’t bite the meat because its ribs n mostly had tendon ..(im not a ribs lover btw…) n my braces is as usual giving me problems!..kesimpulannya, my dinner wasn’t really pleasant..!

Day 4, (26/12/2006)

to be continued…

sorry that i post this late..but ya la ..mission tergendala because of the earthquake in taiwan which affected the telecommunication system in our nation. fyi, i went to Hanoi for 8 days with my uncle’s family.. n yes, my brother is there. i truly enjoyed myself although it was hard for me because i miss my family n friends ALOT, i never missed celebrating Christmas away from home, family, yc n friends n of course, i never been away from home for so long !so..yea la..enjoy reading although its a long post …

Day 1 (

23/10/2006

)

Boarded Airasia plane in LCC Terminal at

3pm

to

Hanoi

,

Vietnam

. Arrived at about

6.30pm

(

5.30pm

:

hanoi

’s time) . the tour bus came to pick the 20 of us ..there were 3 familes ;my uncle’s, Aunt Fiona’s and Aunt Cam’s family. We went straight to the city to have our first Vietnamese dinner ! yippee..i tell you..the food there is totally different and their normal chilli is cili padi!! (according to my bro n uncle who are chilli lovers!)our first dinner consist of fried fish, lotsa raw vege with rice noodles ! the whole thing is cooked right in front of you on d table! Ahhh! I couldn’t forget the taste of it man!On our way back to the bus, we had to cross many busy roads where the traffic is also TOTALLY DIFFERENT from malaysia’s!Our tour guide, Mr.Dao told us that if we ever want to cross the roads of Vietnam, we MUSTN’T LOOK LEFT OR RIGHT to cross it !! believe it or not ! im serious!! No kidding..!but we mustn’t run either..just cross and act as if the road belongs to you !! cars, vans n motorbikes will know how to avoid you..and u don’t have to avoid them ..!therefore, in my own words. “CLOSE YOUR EYES AND CROSS THE ROADS!” ahahaha !it’s our first time getting ourselves lost in the city because the 20 of us were spilt to 10-10..so, I was left in the 2^nd half of the group where we had difficulty crossing the road n the next thing we knew,the other group n Mr.Dao was no where to be seen. So, we stood where we were hoping that the rest are aware of our absence n come find us soon..because we don’t wanna be lost on our first day in

Vietnam

!!

Next, the bus (only 25seater + driver) took us to the train station for a transfer to

Sa

Pa

mountain. We were all suppose to sleep in the cabins in the train the whole night ! It’s a 6 hour journey up the mountains !each cabin had 4 beds (crampy but still comfy..)and there were only 1 basin for simple clean-ups and the toilet is locked till morning!!did I mention that the basin was stucked, water cant flow smoothly and there were nearly 30 – 35 ppl waiting to use the basin before they could sleep ? ? yes.. that was the first night of our holidays. I slept with Aunt Karen ( from fga also), my bro n my cousin(Khang Yeon). To make others jealous, Josh( my genius bro) turned on music from his phone n put the volume to the max !seriously, other parent and children were wondering, “Why their cabin got free music wan ?? how come my cabin don’t have wan? ? “ the four of us had a good laugh !! I kinda like my bed.. hehe J

Day 2(

24/12/2006

)

We arrived at

Sa

Pa

mountain at

5am

(6am M’sia) and another bus took us straight to the Love Market to have our breakfast there..i had ( pancake with choc and Vietnamese fried rice). Then, we walked thru the whole market and guess what I saw ? PIGS !! yes..u read that right.. they sold animals there and they way they treat those animals are just so inhumane! They pull its legs n forced open its mouth  etc for checking..those pigs were crying man !! they look so sad !!! poor pigs ! btw, those pigs weren’t so big la ..n they don’t stink! n they aren’t pink in colour..they are in black! I even shot their  pic! Wanna see ? ? hehe! After that, we went straight to our hotel , Bamboo Sa Pa hotel to wash up. ( FINALLY!!) its because all of us haven’t had a bath for 1 ½ day ! n obviously we all stink !we all had our FIRST shower in Vietnam n the heater isn’t working well because its dependant on burning coal in a small container.but im glad the heater worked well when I was bathing (hehe)..u need special techniques to operate the shower +heater..and only smart ppl like me n my bro can do it ! ahahahah ! no la .. JUST KIDDING!

The whole afternoon was free for leisure and all of us decided to take a long walk around the whole town ( it’s kinda big for a town..but not so high tech like the city wan..).The traffic there were much safer!(Thank God!).did I mention that it was WINTER TIME  in

Vietnam

now ?? hehe ..lovely winter..but no snow wan.. the temperature there was about 15.8celcius on a daily basis.but up in the mountain,it was 5 – 10 celcius. I didn’t feel really cold la …till night time !oh yes! We had tea time at

Victoria

Hotel

..(I had hot choc!perfecto!)..

Night came n all of us had our Christmas eve dinner at

Victoria

Hotel

because there was a buffet dinner there..Rachel,Josh,Khang Yeon n I had the craziest dinner ever! Why ? because we had at least 3 rounds of food! I took some pic of the food we had..we tried their mushroom soup n it was so diff from our normal

Campbell

soup..i prefer

Campbell

soup btw(more creamy n thicker). Here’s something to be shocked at:if u ever notice..there are sections of various food during buffet (soup, rice, noodles, desserts, drinks..etc) right ? well, there was this particular section where they had LOTS N LOTS N LOTS of chocolate based desserts!there was this cottage made of chocolate (I hav d pic!) n a big long log-shaped choc cake ! n around that cake was easter-egg-chocs, santa-like-choc  n Christmas-tree-choc! N when EVERYONE  were looking at me,my bro, Khang Yeon n Rachel…we happily SAPU ALL THOSE CHOC DECORATIONS which weren’t meant to be eaten because it was suppose to be a DECORATION! The chef there was laughing at us man ! ahahahah ! I snapped a pic of the santa-like choc my bro took ..it was about 1 feet tall..hahaha! after dinner, the adults stayed back for Vietnamese coffee and chat…other kids played Uno..i,on the other hand, took a stroll by myself outside the hotel because the feeling of MISSING MY FRIENDS is very strong..seriously, I never felt this homesick before!!i stood at the balcony, had a view overlooking the beautifully decorated Victoria Church, listened to the song “Tonight” and had my first look up in the sky..the stars were beautiful!! It was stupendous….astounding! that whole scenario made me think of my friends more because of the stars which fitted the song “Tonight”.

Walked back to our hotel after realizing that

Victoria

Hotel

don’t have a countdown to Christmas..sigh..it was chilly! N freezing for me …!it was around 3celcius that night !!!! super cool wei !! my bro n my cousin like to act macho only.. no jacket wan ! ishhh !

Day 3, (

25/12/2006

), Christmas Day !!

Rachel and I shared a room…n we both fell in love with the song ‘Tonight’. We woke up at

5am

( 6am M’sia). The sun is already shinning brightly..had breakfast at the hotel’s restaurant..everyone wore back their dirty clothes..that includes me..y ? because we were suppose to be trekking down the mountain, thru the villages,cross a wooden bridge to a waterfall, and back up the mountain to the bus waiting at the end of our trek..yup! that’s what we did the whole morning..we were expected to finish trekking in 2 hours but we finished 30mins earlier..its not simple trekking because there were A LOT OF STAIRS EVERYWHERE …up n down , up n down , up n down !! my leg’s muscle sore a lil.i was getting a lil pening lalat cos there were STAIRS EVERYWHERE ! WINDING STAIRS with cow/pig/buffalo/goat dunk everywhere ! ahaha..had a good time avoiding those stuff..lol! I have a video of the waterfall we stopped at..it was BEAUTIFUL  I tell u !! With the sun rays and the rainbow n the waterfall..it was seriously AWESOME…God’s creation is really very good I say .. VERY VERY VERY VERY GOOD! After trekking, the bus took us back near our hotel for lunch..where we had spring rolls n other food la .. the spring rolls in

Vietnam

is very famous actually.n their Rice Noodles, pho ( pronounced as fur) is seriously my FAVOURITE !!after lunch, we went back to the hotel to wash up where the 20 of us shared 2 bathrooms! We had to check out before we finish trekking.

Bath

time was long (u understand why rite?)..left

Sa

Pa

mountain at around

5pm

(

6pm

M’sia) for our train departure down the mountain at

9pm

(

10pm

M’sia). The journey down the mountain took us 3 hours..we had dinner near the station at Emotion Café  where I started feeling drowsy and had motion sickness because of the rocky n unstable winding mud roads for 3 hours..here’s another ‘good’ story I have.. I ordered ‘bbq pork chop with fries and salad’(something diff this time I thought…), n my food came in last ! but nevermind , I don’t mind. However, I didn’t get what I ordered…because they gave me Pork Ribs!where I couldn’t bite the meat because its ribs n mostly had tendon ..(im not a ribs lover btw…) n my braces is as usual giving me problems!..kesimpulannya, my dinner wasn’t really pleasant..!

Day 4, (

26/12/2006

)

-to be continued in the next post-

remember to drop a comment ! thank you peeps ! hugx ! take care !^^ lalalalalalala………

okay la ..time to post something cause its been so long since i last post anything.. but just before i start, wanna give the upmost salute to SHAUN !! the reason is : i love his blog ..! so lively n up-to-date ..not like mine..boring n quiet..y can’t my blog be like him? lolx..no offence..lolx..nvm..kesimpulannya, GO VISIT HIS BLOG! *i dont get paid for saying this..haha*here’s the link to shaun’s blog…=) dont mind ya shaun that im linking to your blog..

SPM started like two weeks plus ago..started with accounts paper..ahh! i LOVE accounts !but made silly mistakes after david made me realize it..then came BM paper..my next favourite subject..hmmm..i would say that im satisfied with my essays n the komsas..but one thing that God alerted me which i REALLY REALLY REALLY have to thank Him for it is missing pages in the paper! yes..u read that right..i had 4 pages missing from my BM paper 2(komsas)..i didn’t realise it at first but after completing the 2nd question only i realise..so much time left, how come so little questions wan ? ? BOOM!4 pages missing..that was like 35/38 marks there…God, thank You for alerting me..if not, fail BM paper..cannot enter form 6 or college even! have to RESIT spm or the paper itself. then must continue to wear uniforms!!argh!

next was HIStory and English paper..eng was okay la..but kinda worried for my essay part..cos i think i didn’t write enough points..my conclusion also cacat-ed a bit.history was umm ummm..um…NO COMMENT !(tak nak disappoint myself if my grade isnt what i expected..). Next was Maths..ahh! the first time i hear sharon say, " i LOVE MATHS!" ..that was because she didnt like add math..did i say it correctly, sharon? heh heh ..maths was ok la..paper 1 was something more difficult that the usual question that we do in class etc. got tembak here n there last minute la..but ok la..not too bad..still get A i think..cos i prayed before i tembak the answers, after i check with my friends..those i tembak was correct..THANK YOU GOD ! see…my fellow fwens, PRAYER WORKS!matthew, i salute u too cos u come out earlier for maths paper 2 !! (if i didnt remember wrongly what u told me..correct me if im wrong) then came EST paper : OK also la..can handle..

SUPER STRESS WEEKEND CAME ! cos practically everyone was preparing for add math, physics, chemistry, moral and bio..lazy people like me sure wont sleep so much wan cause i didnt study for physics and add math for like for a long time..forgotten everything about those two subjects..so, kenalah belajar bermati-matian..haha..tapi tak mati pun..hampir aje..in preparation of add math and physics, i seriously OWE SOMEONE ALOT !won’t mention your name here ..tak nak u malu ke ape..but still, u know who u are if u r reading this..THANK YOU SO MUCH !! WILL TREAT YOU AFTER SPM! and don’t say NO!if we are good friends, u will understand the guilt that i have for calling u like almost the whole day..kacauing you about physics..IM SO SORRY!! THANK YOU SO MUCH! -terhutang budi kat u- was preparing for physics..cos i dont want to let mr.Chan down..wanna do my best in physics.n so, spent ALOT TIME n didnt have proper sleep cos i wanna finish reading the whole form 4 n 5 stuff..( which i didnt finish cos i didnt touch radioaktif.. concentrated on haba after listening to someone..thank you so much!u r GREAT!) earlier i said i didnt have enough sleep cos i "allow" my bro to sleep on my bed ! but he was hugging matt(my kangaroo soft-toy..not the human)..of cos i rampas balik la..lolx..dont want him to suffer under my bro’s arms..haha..the other reason i didnt have proper sleep is myself to blame cos i sleep on the sofa for 3 nights..had backache..but manage to get up earlier to study than usual..u see, if i sleep on my comfy bed..i’ll be TOO LAZY to wake up cos i am enjoying the softness and the comfort on my bed in my room..with 2 pillows, Lucy(the dog soft-toy)  n Matt(the kangaroo) n my BLANKY!!(like the green dino in Barney..)so, i decided to sleep on the sofa..dont say im weird or crazy! cos i’ve got that comment like for the 100th time from friends and my mom!so, i KNOW im WEIRD n CRAZY!!thank you so much for your comment…

okay! back to the main topic ..physics and add math..both was okay I GUESS..! then came CHEMISTRY..this one i would also like to THANK GOD for it ..cos once again, HIS HELP was never failing..you see, we had a lunch break after chemistry 2nd paper n just before chemistry 3rd paper..so, my mom took me for lunch..n i was having my notes with me la..i was asking God to show me what is coming out for paper 3 eksperiment..*flip*flip*flip* ..then came to getah asli and getah tervulkan’s eksperiment..totally forgotten about the exestence of topic..sorry mr.Lim if u are reading this..im so sorry! den memorise the whole eksperiment..BOOM! it came out for chemistry paper 3 eksperiment..exactly the same..i was staring at the question in DISBELIEF and AWE ! speechless..was laughing at myself n practically thanking God till the point where there’s no words to describe my thanks to Him…seeeeeriously! haha..luckily la the invigilators n the students around me didn’t notice my laugh..if not, they think i tiru ke ape then masalah berlaku..lolx.. aiyoo..i seriously thank God for EVERYTHING man!HUGX!!after that paper, went home n told my mom about it..she was like "SO GOOD AR !! HAHA..SEE! u have God with you..so u dont need to worry about it.."true la ..seriously..haha! =D

then came moral paper..hmmm..ok i guess..but kinda scared for it also cos Macia said that we have to write the watak before answering the question..Puan Yap taught us to do so too..eg. " REMAJA memajukan diri dalam bidang pendidikan"..but i totally forgotten about it ..i just straight away write the answer " bidang pendidikan"..but matt pulak say the marking scheme not so strict wan..examiners also teachers..will bertimbang rasa wan ..hmmm…i seriously pray that i will get A1 for moral cos i wanna apply scholarships! puan Yap said that if moral paper no A1..cannot apply scholarship..okay ..now im getting worried (sorry God!) ..but nvm!He will take care of everything..! =p

thats all so far about spm..cos i still have biology papers on monday…and im sitting here blogging !! see ! how "hardworking" i am..dont learn from me ..haha!u should study..lolx..in preparations for SPM 2006..there are indeed many things i am VERY GRATEFUL FOR .. here’s the list..whatever i put first doesnt mean it’s more important n those at the bottom of the list doesnt mean it’s less important..its all the same IMPORTANT to me..except the 1st one on my list..now that is much more important! hehe ..

1.GOD
2.friends and "daddy"
3.matt(the kangaroo)
4.my pillow
5.the "soft" sofa
6.books
7.food(no food= no energy=no study=spm gone!)
8.my cd player(i cannot study without music..had it on like the whole day..luckily didnt overheat..lolx..)
9.my bro(he didnt let me eat junkfood,scared i get sorethroat den cannot sit for spm.."thank you" so much! )
10.the house phone (cos i takda hp..so, had to use hse phone to call SOMEONE to teach me physics n stuff.thank you again!!)
11. alot more..but wont name it all..heh heh

hmmm..one more thing i noticed when i arrive in school in the mornings..you see, surely got ppl earlier than me wan..so, when i arrive NEAR the hall which my friends will gather..SURELY can hear LAUGHTERS wan..by who ? ? david..as usual! *everyone nods their head!* my friends will gather in like a circle or just sit together la..n ask questions n study n joke around etc. That is like the usual scenario every morning in blok G hall..but as the tougher subject comes up..the laughter subsides!that includes the jokes we all throw around..cos bm, sej, bi, est, math paper time..everyone joking joking laughing laughing..but when PHYSICS came..! fuiyohh!!! *swept away by the presence of pressure and seriousness* david was sitting by himself..shaun was sitting by himself..some others too i guess..no more laughter and jokes..u can actually see the obvious serious look on their faces..lolx..and so! as i was eager to finish everything in physics and making sure that i remember everything correctly, i ALSO sit by myself..haha! like sharon said, yuen peng will be like" ceh! add math only ! sap sap sui! ceh! physics only!" yikes! dont kill me if i quote that wrongly..sori yp! heh heh =p but seriouly la..she is another person i look up too cos she like "THE GENIUS"see! got title for her somemore which makes her even more SOMEONE..shaun, david, matthew etc..among the ppl i admire too!

ahh! i think i wrote TOO long..wouldnt want to strain your eyes..so, all the best to the form 5s who are taking bio paper on monday..gosh! ~~ i can’t wait for it to end..cos i wanna go for the class hi-tea ..! yippee! n take alot of pics ( not that i got a camera also..), CG  outting, movie with my "family" members, taylors open day, planet shakers night concert !! (hurray!!), YC CAMP 2006!! YEAH !! maybe going to genting if mom allows( God, pls let her RELEASE me to genting with my friends..)..other than that, probably will help awhile in my uncle’s clinic in selayang (that’s far!)but i wont be able to online for a long time cos i will be staying with my uncle’s hse and his modem got prob wan..no internet connection yet..sigh! but apa macam!? want to earn extra $$ so that maybe i could get christmas gifts…if not leh, everything will be handmade..just pray for my fingers! because i wanna continue to cross-stitch after abandoning it for like  5/6 years..i started cross-stitching after UPSR.hmmm..

to be continued after spm is OVER !! cheers everyone!

And again..this is the second time im posting this..the same thing..dont know what happened the other time..saved my post n after checking, there the title..but nothing in it !! ish … haih .. nvm .. patient..

friends ? what define friends.. ? what does it count to be a true friend .. or to have a true friend.. ?i’ve somehow found some of the answers to those thoughts when i was preparing for cg teaching today.. it’s hard find true friends…i have many friends whom i can laugh with.. n laugh at too (everyone think of david !! ahaha !! ) ..normal la for us to laugh at ppl .. lolx.. but recent minor happenings have sparked off my thought about friendship … although its really a small minor matter, it really hit me hard and left me to ponder about this kind of relationship .. call me emo ..but its really disappointing when ppl who really matters to you .. isnt whom you’ve thought you could call him/her a true friend.. but in another way, you come to realise that there isnt anyone whom you could put your WHOLE 110% trust in him/her..none other than God..all heads nod with me !! =) but im thankful that i have friends around me.. ppl whom i can rely on, who can support me n help me when im in trouble or sad, whom i can share my deepest thoughts with when im in frus, ppl who helps shape my character n ppl who can tell me off right in my face when i did something wrong..not to forget, ppl who encouraged me alot in my Christian-life… salutes n thanks to u all !! n to you who r reading this at this moment..you ppl are just so lovely n awesome !! i wont write so much this time..im afraid i’ll bore you with this topic..but just to let you know.. I LOVE YOU ALL !!  …ahaha! don’t emo leh !! lolx.. heh heh .. here’s something i’ve found too while surfing the net for some stuff.. enjoy !!

True Friends
When you are sad,
I will dry your tears.
When you are scared,
I will comfort your fears.

True friends are rare,
In a lifetime two or three,
I’m so glad it happened,
Between you and me!

and another one…i find both these poems ..beaaaaaauuuutiful!.. ;p

                                                   God’s Gift

One day when God felt generous,
He looked down at me and smiled,
"Since I feel so magnanimous,
I’d like to give you something, child."

He asked me what I wanted,
I said, "Oh, really nothing more,
You’ve done so much already."
He said, "That’s what God is for."

"You have been pretty good," He said,
I know there’s not much that you seek,
I will pick a little something,
Just to make your life complete."

With great anticipation,
I looked forward to my gift,
I wondered what God had in mind,
That would give me such a lift.

"This gift," God said, "You realize,
Bears some responsibility,
So, if you accept my present,
You must be willing to agree…

"To offer unconditionally,
A section or a part,
Of more than half of you,
The larger portion of your heart."

"Okay, God," I answered,
"Since in You, I always trust,
I’ll meet your obligation,
In the manner that I must."

To myself, I thought, wow, what a gift,
For so much of me, God’s asked,
Now what could be so valuable,
That my share was more than half?

With both hands I sought my gift,
I still did not have a clue,
Then God put your hand in mine,
And said His gift to me was YOU!

AHH!! CAN’T WAIT FOR S.U. FAREWELL PARTY 2006 !! YIPPEE !! *ahem ! too bad "someone" cannot come..if not, ALL of us can sabo him .. hahaha!!! happy holidays to all !!

aiyooo…it happened again !!! typed finish everything n then everything gone in a split second ..everything was erased totally from my screen..n now this is my second time typing the same thing.. ish !! my time …!! haih.. nvm…

its been quite a long time since i last blog..hmm..many things have taken place especially after the Combined SCF meeting.. n ok..i have to admit over here.. i miss the meeting !! i miss it alot !! i miss sabo-ing wei-jan, matthew, rose etc. haha!decorating ppl face with toothpaste when i kena the most..! ish..ahahaha.. i miss the pnw..i miss the ppl who came.. i miss the crowd.. i miss their smiles n laughter.. i miss the food !! i miss God’s work there.. its really amazing.. realy really truly amazing to see God moving among the ppl there.. i miss the band.. some of my seniors have been asking , "when is the next one? when is the next one coming up ??" ahaha..really la..have to say that it also boost me up for a greater challenge..i would really love to have another but for now.. study time for SPM..!i’ll have to pray for another combined meeting n that also, if God approves of it den only i’ll do it again lar.. n that also if im still studying in form6 ..if i dont get a scholarship in UTAR n local matricualtion..hehe..

had SU meeting today..it was election time !!im officially a retiree today !! yeah !! haha..i sound so bad.. heh heh.. lolx.. anyways.. it  all went well.. the new committee members are beautiful children of God..anointed ppl..hehe..n im sure they’ll do great in SU.. they are all amazing ppl that i’ve known..behold these are the man and woman of God for Scripture Union SMKSS 2006/2007 (drum rolls effect…………………………..):

President : Anna Yap
Vice President : Kew Li Yan
Secretary : Annabelle Wong
Vice Secretary : Wong Yi Pin
Treasurer :Boey Wei-Jan
Vice Treasurer : Jorvy Tan
Worship Director : Soo Wei Wen
Games Coordinator : Joshua Ng
Publicity Team : Tuck Wai n Kar Wah
Afternoon Representative : Lee Jer Min

CONGRATULATIONS !! to all the new committee members..aka bossies or bosses or the members..in other words.. BOSS = Buat Orang Sangat Senang..as taught by my daddy-pig-oink who is currently having his big relaxing time in Brisbane, Australia..to the peeps..all the best to you ppl!! make God proud! make ya teachers n students amazed at your faithfulness n unity..etc. rock SU like never b4 !! make everyone crazy for God..go multiply !! continue being "Not Mere Christians" grow n mature in Christ n in everything that is good.. may you all learn new things thru the things that you are doing..go make God proud !! hurray !! =D anna n liyan, you two crazy who sometimes make me speechless with your craziness..all the best to you two n do everything with prayer..really ..rely on God n u can see alot miracles happening.. to the rest..unity n prayer !!to the new form6 students..hehe..sure blur here n there abit but still..God will guide u ppl wan..dont worry..u r all in good hands.. n i just dont know y but i really really find that Jorvy’s name is one-of-a-kind, special n cute ! ahaha..n he look just so innocent !! ahahaha..jermin, haih..the cute mr.lee’s youngest son..ahahaha..anna + li yan = crazy girls .. wakakaka.. =) haih..since we r on this topic..i have to admit some stuff here..ive shed some tears thinking about the fact that im leaving SU so soon! i just miss everything la..i miss SU! i miss the trouble of doing things..i miss the people..i miss the members..i miss their laughter n smiles.. i miss the efforst that everyone has contributed..i miss the projects n meetings n outting that we had.. i miss docorating the board..i miss the band.. i miss the pnw..i miss the prayer sessions.. i miss everything !! i miss calling up the members.. i miss the dvds that we watched ..thks david!i miss last year’s farewell party..i missthe trip to doulos..i miss Hari Pameran..i miss the Combined SCF.. i miss EVERYTHING !! i miss SU !!!!!!!!!!!!ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh….so..kinda sad la that im leaving SU…hmmm…its not about the post as president that i miss..not that.. i miss the atmosphere of things happening n changing in SU ..i miss seeing the miracles of God in SU .. i miss everything ..sob..sob..sobs..sobs..haih..c u all next year if im coming back for form 6 n that also if i didnt get scholarship in TARC n local matriculation..hmm..so pray hard !! ahhhh!! i miss everything… sorry for the emo-ness..

trials are over !! finally !! but the results that i got wasnt that of what i expected..really put in alot effort this time in getting good results for spm trials but ahhhhhhhhhhh!!! didnt really get the straight A’s that i wanted n hoped for..fizik : dont talk about it.. math was okay..eng : ahh !!lost to shaun n suk yeng in paper 2..so far la..havent checked with the rest yet..eheheheh..bm : my esei isnt that good although i havent get back my paper yet.. i know that my olahan in bm esei is not that good this time..dont know the reason for it..sigh.. bio : 1 mark away from b3.. but was expecting to get at least A2 lor.. sad lar .. !!sobsobsosbsobsobsobsobs…akauns was ok but was also expecting to get higher than wat i got so that i could cover up the low marks that i got in other subjects.. n thats all the results i got for the time being.. sob sob sob …no straight As adi.. sobsss…sobss…sobs…. :’( cannot ! must study harder for spm .. n sure harder… must get straight As..God, please help me ..

Paradise Team came down to hold Unity Conference..it was awesome ! i love the concert ! went last Sat..really really good..sad thing i didnt buy the album..no $$ ..sob..sob..sobs..wanted the Unity badge so much !! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! but i didnt see any of it on sale.. sighx.. really had fun with wei jan, josh, matthew, aaron, mei fang etc. can anyone send me their songs..especially It’s You n Assuredly Yours…?? hehe ….thks alot !!

ahhh!! i got another haircut !! n this time i bengang adi ..! wanted the same style but just shorter a little..but the hairdresser go n cut differently.. he was looking at other customers while cutting my hair..in other words.. he didnt cut my hair properly..simply cut.. n now its super short!! n its different.. !! alot different !! i look weird !!! sobs sobs sobs.. i look like a freak, dont i ? i didnt want layered..but he go n layer my hair until so short !! sob sob sob … y isnt there any hairdresser or saloon that i could rely on or trust ? come on hair, grow faster !!! grow faster !! heh heh .. den i cut myself if i had to ..

hmmmm…i guess thats all for now…dont know what else to blog about.. spm is near ..!! ahhh!! 49 days away ..no..its less for me since im taking acc as extra subject..hmmm…all the best to the new com.members..all the best to everyone who is taking pmr n spm this year !! God bless !! n to my cg members… come for YC cos i miss u ppl!!to my schoolmates..stop the kok hou n matt thing.. !to SU members..keep shinning for Christ !! to me..STUDY HARDER !!

adios my frens !! lotsa love !!hugx!  ^^

hmmm..holidays are up! it started already… ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!! but im GROUNDED..u read that ?? grounded…. ! sob sob sob! how can this be ? haih …i wanna go out! i wanna watch Garfield!haih…..poor me .. haih ..

okie..back to the main purpose of me psoting this blog. . its been very werid but fascinating experience for me since standard 6 .. i have been having dreams.. yes.. dreams when im sleeping at night…im not talking about the nightmares that many of us could have..im not talking also about the fantasy-like dreams which some of us are having too.. im actually referring to dreams.. which i think comes from God.. hmm..get what im trying to say over here? u see..when i was in Standard 6 .. i have these 3 dreams at different nights..but its all quite similiar..i was in 6 Kuning..2nd good class at that moment..i was the ketua kelas..Puan Rosnani was my class teacher.. she was very loveable la.. very funny n good teacher.. very rajin wan.. she taught me BM..(if i didnt remember wrongly..)so..there was one night where i dreamt that Pn.Rosnani was playing the guitar in the classroom..n my whole class was really worshipping God.. they were ALL singing PRAISE SONGS to Jesus!! that was really incredible for me..its not 1 time i dreamt it.. it was three times!! the other two times were quite similiar with the first ones.. there was once when i dreamt that some of my schoolmates whom i dont know well were taking me to one of the Standard 6 classrooms..n when i entered it ..again..i saw the whole classroom worshipping God.. it is really AMAZING!!it is supernatural lar to me .. but i am really not sure whether it is really from God or not.. i told my mom about these "weird" dreams that im having..n she said it is definitely from God.. that was in Standard 6..

now..back to this year… 2006!! hmm..new life..new MELODY..new resolutions..new heart..new school..new frens..new surrounddings..new responsibilites..overall..almost everything is NEW!!so..yea lar..finalyl came back to God after the down year of my life - form4 ..wouldnt wanna talk about form4…but in these recent months..i got super weird dreams again..n this time..u really gotta agree with me .. its not an ordinary thing to experience..this year.. its been an amazing year for me so far..n i still believe that this year is  gonna end in a different way than other previous years in my life.. because this year..i had God beside me all the time ..n i can feel Him ..even beside me right now..n i totally fell in love with God up to the point where i can say .. i wanna stay singel for the rest of my life ..just for Him..hehe..ah yes ! u didnt read wrongly n i didnt type anything wrong too.. i really wanna stay focus n single for the rest of my life just for God.. hehe..n He approved it as well.. im happy about it! but as i looked back in my life ..i had two brothers actually.. one was Joshua ( currently 15 years old..)..n another is Justin..he passed away when i was 11 years old..he was only 3 years old at that time..okay..i wont go into futher details about it.. but if anyone really curious about it..come look for me n ask me personally..

There was once when i just felt like meeting back Justin ..i know he’s in heaven now..im glad he’s in a safe n good n happy place..im glad that Jesus is looking after him now.. thank you Jesus!so..yea lar.. there was once when i really miss Justin..i wanted to see him face to face..i wanted to meet him .. i wanted to know how he looked like .. i told God about it..i told God that i hoped to meet Justin again..but suprisingly one night, i fell asleep in my locked-room with the lights on.. it was around 2am when i just woke up out of sudden ..i turned to my right side i opened my eyes a little.. i didnt see a ghost.. i saw an angel…yea..ANGEL! A REAL LIFE ANGEL..WITH WINGS..he had blonde hair ..beautiful n good looking .. real wan!! he had wings .. he was wearing white robes..then he held his left hand out to me .. i was in tears..not tears of happiness..but tears of being terharu..touched..n i turned away .. i continued crying in bed..n that is the reason why i want to bring home "the angel" which Shaun drew for Ji Chen n Kar Mun coloured it for Hari Pameran in my school..it reminds me of the Angel who i met..

now..just recently when i was in the middle preparations for the Combined School Christian Fellowship meeting which was held last Friday..i was scared ..i was unsure whether to continue doing it ..ahh! i think i talked about this already in my last blogpost..this is where Rose talked about the Chicken Little thing..remember ? hmm…n it was just a few days before the Combined SCF thing..i was afraid of what would happen on that Fri .. i was worried ..super worried!! very very worried!!i was asking God to take control of everything..n i was still super worried.. then came one night when i sleeping (duh! dreams only happen when u are sleeping…), i dreamt that it was during the end times..in the dark times..when i was in a classroom (but not in my school..)..my bio teacher, pn lee was teaching in front.. the whole room was quite dark.. cos end times mar..i was sitting there in my place doing my work .. n JiChen was in front of me..yea.. JiChen..he was in my dream..i know thats weird but dont lar go n brag about it in front of him !! haih..so.. yea lar .. he was doing his work..i was doing mine..until he turned his chair towards me n then we started talking lar..we were talking about God n our praying experiences..n yea..he said something like this : "u know ar..when me n my frens got together to pray..my feet hurts..it was like having pins n needles under your feet.." n i was like "oh yea.. ? but when my fren prayed, she felted almost the same thing too.. her feet hurt too..etc" ..n then he said this to me .. i remembered it very clearly.. "when i together with my frens n prayed..God was there with us because He promised us that when two or three gather together in His name, He will be there..BUT when u (melody) prayed..even by yourself..God is already with you.. "

notice the number difference when Jichen said that in my dream..its amazing how God can speak to me even in my dreams..hmm..its really incredible!its wonderful..it assured me that He will take care of things on Fri.. n in my life.. that he will take care of me .. n He will always be there for me .. thank you God !! hugx!!

*ah yes!! now that i have the opportunity to write about this..for those of you ppl reading this..n you know about the teasings that you heard or said before about me n matthew, matthew n jas..etc..i know its just teasing..i know its for the fun of it..i know its suppose to be a joke..but come on la ..jokes also got limits wan lar.. dont lar go n teasing ppl all the time until ppl get mad or feel irritated about it.. dont always go around teasing about me n matthew..or matthew n jasmine..come on lar… poor us lar ! three of us kena only..then u all leh ? not fair lar.. the relationship among the three of us is just basically GOOD FRIENDS!other than that, i will call matthew, "daddy" n jas will call him "daddy" too..n he will either call us " panda, pig or good daughters.." ..thats it..nothing more than that.. we are just brothers n sisters in Christ.. nothing hanky panky going on between us..there you go! there’s the truth..accept it or just blah!u can tease but u know yourself the limits..i hope what i mentioned here is very clear n understandable..n if i ever said something that could have hurt your feelings..im sorree!! i apologise..please forgive me n dont hold any grudges against me..God says to forgive.. hehe.. *

i guess thats it for now.. take care ppl..i love u all!!happy holidays…n study hard!! n pray for me .. im grounded…!!oh ya! thanks ppl for the comments that you guys have left me..thank you! its so nice n happy for me to know that ppl actually read my blog.. so yeah!! yippee!! please continue to leave your comments.. hehe… i love u ppl!! muaxx!!

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!! today’s the day!! hurray! it was awesome..it was amazing..it was superb..it was stupendous..etc..!!i was so super worried that it wouldnt turn out well but look at it today..it was super great!! God is great!! no..He is more than great!! He is marvelous!!ahhh…i love u God !!

for those who are wondering what im talking about..lemme ceritakan in details..u see..3 weeks ago, my friend,matthew n i decided to plan this combined school christian fellowship meeting where cf from different schools come together n fellowship, have fun, praise n worship, pray n etc..n it was like really 3 weeks ago..its a short time ( for me la..) to plan for this kinda big event..so yeala..Matthew did all the paperwork..thks daddy!!heh heh..but i help u type wan leh since u were coughing terribly..*cough*cough*  but nevermind..u take all the credit since u so "susah-susah" ask your teachers all sign..haha..but the way you got them to sign was cool la..haha..but..so bad ar u ..so cunning.. haha! neway, yeah..back to the main topic..we called up alot of the cf presidents from different schools..we invited them..many turned down our invitation..sad la that time..n somemore i was very unsure about continuing this programme cos my mom is scolding me for not studying n for doing stuff for my cf la..then the story continue when i really asked God whether to continue this plan/idea/dream anot…i was feeling so bad cos its like im doing un-illegal things behind my mom’s back (my mom warned me not to do any major event after Hari Pameran..she wants me to study..)..then the next day, i went to YC as usual n it was during the 1st service when pastor Rose came up on stage in the middle of praise n worship session n told us about her seeing this super cute chicken little character on a badge saying "WHO U CALLING CHICKEN?"..she continued talking about doing the things of God n trusting Him n obeying Him all at the same time..she kinda challenged all the YCians to take the step of faith to obey God whether in carrying out His plans for us or being the person He wants us to be or even doing a big event although we have doubts about it.. when she said it, it hit me la!God was talking to me..He just answered me the doubts that i had..so,on the spot, i told God that i will continue the Combined SCF meeting..then everyday i called my friends to invite them to this meeting, planed this n that..n mom is screaming at me cos she doesnt know that this meeting is organized by her own daughter n i am using the house fon alot la..haih..moms..

it was very sad for me when my friend n i invited so many cf but many didnt turn up..haih.. =(  but all things work for the good of the Lord right? hehe..we actually had alot stuf to prepare lor..there was ice-breakers where we dont know what to play cos we were expecting so many ppl n we dont wanna let anyone feel alienated..then at first we got one of the school cf to do praise n worship..they said yes in the first place ..but after 1 week, said tak nak datang pulak..haih..so in 2 weeks, matt n i had to search for a band to play on that day..funny la cos it was a Monday(i think so..) when matt called me up n told me good news : he found a guitarist n pianist. haha!! really laughing my heart out that time..i also found a guitarist n pianist..haha! wat la…hahahah!but we dont have a drummer..haih..so the song leader who was eventually karmen, she played the drums instead n shaun took over as the worship leader.. annabelle back-up..my bro, josh on the piano, tuck wai on the acoustic guitar n wei wen on the electric guitar..so practically, they had their band practice 3 times in a week before today!!im truly amazed by their efforts n sacrifice la..thanks so much band!! hugx!but booking the place for us to practice was totally in a mess at first!i thought we ahd a place to practice but it wasnt booked..cos i didnt know n my pastor didnt book it for me.. so, on the spot itself..i was in church..the band members were already with me..n we had no place to practice..Judah n Rose wasnt around..so..i dont know who to turn to to book la..den finally ..miracle! my church elder..Elder Ang n Mrs Ang..they were walking out of the office n they heard what i was facing la..then Mrs And approached me n asked me what was happening..i explained to her that the guard dont allow us to practice n the place isnt booked 1 week earlier yet..so she asked me to fill up a form n she signed it for me instantly..i was like super-shock la..woah!n other church leaders who were there was like shock also cos they wasnt really keen on approving my band to practice in church since we havent booked to place yet..den out of sudden, Mrs Ang came n just sign the letter for me..haha! stunned at what God can do instantly when i faced problems.. i love you God !! muaxx!! so..yeah! we got the place to practice right away after the application form was approved!woohoo!!all that happened last friday..then came the next day, they practice again ..*another last minute booking* then last wednesday, they practised again..hmm..matt, thanks for coming n doing the PA..

lemme tell ya about wednesday night prayer meeting..i went to school as usual till recess time, went home early, went back to SMKBBSP to get my certs etc. , went to church for the band practice n went home at about 6pm..den came night time when i already so super-exhausted..but nevermind…went for the prayer meeting in church..n then suddenly prayer request..Rose told everyone about this Combined SCF meeting n i was shock la cos i didnt tell anyone that there is this kinda meeting going on … n then, after prayer..many came up to me n asked this n that..some of the leaders decided to come..hehe.. thanks ppl!! n then today….

i was so super worried n nervous n scared… couldnt study whole day in school..i was freaking out..i was shivering alot! ahhhh…but nevermind la..i told myself that God will be in control.. He will take care of everything..trust in Him ..etc. after school, quickly rushed to church with the worship team..they started practising n i quickly got the sound equipment box from Level3..set up all the mic etc. dunno how to set up ler..!!"daddy"……!!!!mom(real one) made sushi rice n bought bananas for us..everyone came about 1.15pm - 1.30pm..so, we started at 1.30pm as planned..had ice-breaker where matt handled it..we played "hi one dot" game..some of them got 1 dot of toothpaste on their face..2dots,3dots..etc..haha! they had their "facial treatment"..lolx..Liyan pulak sapu toothpaste on my face..so, i sapu back on her la..lolx..matt also..lolx..then, i sneaked up to rose n sabo her with toothpaste..hehe.. hahaha!!im so evil!Rose is my youth pastor by the way..means she is my boss la ..lolx..then we continued with praise n worship where Shaun song-lead..etc. they were great la..:) although karmen was very nervous at the drums but it was okay for me…she actually missed a few beats but it was not bad la..God’s presence was there!!that is more important..the people were really worshipping..touched~~~~ then came games where we played Team Fotress..we got the guys n girls to pair up..the girls had balloons on their ankles n the guys had a newspaper stick to protect his ‘wife’ (as mentioned by matt..haih..lolx..)n her balloon n also his legs from kena whack by other ‘couples’ ..lolx..kinda fun to see them play la..lolx..the people at the back were like "huh?" but overall, we had fun la.. =)

after that we had s short prayer session…they got into groups of 5 - 6person..they got to know each other n started praying.. after the last amen, the anointed Pastor Rose came up to speak..hehe..me, matt n kristy were in the hospitality room to prepare the drinks..after that, we came out to listen to the preacher..She did an altercall..more of a step of faith thingy la..but just stand up instead of coming to the front..the band played "Our God is an Awesome God" softly..a few stood up after that, we closed in prayer n makan!! yay! the sushi rice was first to finish..waliao..the fried mee hoon prepared my jasmine’s mom was good…but it was alot!! super alot! so..in the end..i took the leftovers home so that my mom can bring to her home fellowship..hehe..smart leh ..? hehe..dont mind ya,jas..hehe..but it was really good.. haha! finally, i get to sabo matthew with the colouful string spray that i bought the day before today..hehe..haha! c la..thats wat u get when u put toothpaste on my face n hair..haha..evil me..but yea la..hahahahahahahaha!! bleks!=p many of us smelt like mint..lolx..cos its Darlie toothpaste..after makan n there were only saint gabriel’s n sentosa’s students..we took pic together-gether..hehe..oh ya! i wanna apologise to everyone if i had ever made u mad during the event..maybe i said something wrong or whatever la..lolx..sorry guys!

so..i guess i’ll end here..ahh!! wat a day…learnt a lot of things thru this event..it was very good.. hmmm..mmm..good!hehe..take care people..! special thanks to God who took control of things n took care of everything when i am freaking out sometimes..lolx..sorry God.. 8D n a milion thanks to Matthew n Jasmine for all things that they had done for today’s event..thanks daddy-o n sis!!where’s mummy ??lolx..jk.. bleks =p to the worship team, shaun, josh, karmun, wei wen, annabelle n tuck wai..u ppl were awesome!! congrats!!thanks Pastor Rose for speaking..n sorry for all the trouble .. hehe..i had fun sabo-ing u.. ngek ngek ngek..hahaha!Liyan,Wei Jan n Anna ..thanks alot for your help..for leading the sentosarians to chapel n the OHP..thanks alot ppl! ahhh….i love u all so much!! im so proud of u ppl!! hugxx! lets celebrate!! please leave me a comment for those of you who came just now..tq! take care n God bless..good night.. zzzz…

by,
melody = suckling piglet (as told by swee keat, shak n matthew..haih =.=lll)

haih..actually adi second time i type this wan..bengang betul! type so long adi.. den dunno wat happen till the page changed into another page n then everything i type is GONE !! argh! ..nvm .. sabar..

So, yala..i think its time we get into a serious session of prayer , praise and worship etc. in Scripture Union (SU).we had alot of things..Welcome Day, AGM,Talk Day, Easter and Good Friday, Postal Bible Quiz, Sister’s Day, Brother’s Day, PnW Day n finally… Prayer Day !! today !! hmm..we started late actually beacuse most of the morning session members tengah makan kat kantin, teacher was bz with other things n i wasnt aware of the time that was passing by fast..haih..im so blur!!luckily my bro reminded me about the time..heh heh..

   Everyone got into small groups of 4 or 5 to pray..i told them to pray for one another n for everything under the sun..hehe..cos u c rite.. we really need prayer in our daily lives lor.. rite ? so, i told them to pray for the school,school teachers,our future, SCF, for our country’s leaders even though many of us dont know exactly what they do individually..hehe..typical Malaysian teens..dont worry! im one of them too..haha! =) anyway.. yala..

   There were Li Yan, Kar Wah, Mei Fang, Wei Jan, Annabelle and Anna (n me too!!) ..we started hearing the problem which Li Yan is facing..then we continued hearing from Kar Wah, Wei Jan, Mei Fang, Annabelle and Anna..hmm..ok la..i had to give in in the end..didnt want to share out my problems since time is running out n i wasnt really keen on sharing problems semenjak peristiwa itu pada masa silam saya..hmm..no point fuguring out what im trying to say because none of u knows what it is.. except like only 4 person in cluding me n God..hehe..so, practically only two of my friends know about it..its not something which im proud at..not something that i could be happy about so.. yala..wont tell out..n ya. at the prayer session, i mentioned about the upcoming Combined School Christian Fellowship meeting which is only TWO weeks away..ahh!! so fast ! no la ..actually , this is a last minute (for me) plan thingy la..okay, i have to admit here..i AM scared, afraid n worried about it !! this is a first for me..its big kay..i dont know what to do.. just had this idea of combining a few school’s CF for a small interactive meeting in the beginning of the year..but dont know what school to combine with until i met Jasmine n Matthew..hehe.. thanks alot to the both of you, Jas n Matty-boy..i couldnt have continued this without the both of you ..!! so..yea la..i was chatting with Matt last Sun on9 until this idea suddenly came popped into my brain n we started discussing about it..n until WALA! we ARE doing it!! hurray !! i was so excited about this..so happy !! so nuts n crazy about this..!! cant wait for THE DAY ..!!went to sleep happily..! then , the next day i talked to Puan Goh (CF teacher advisor) about this n she said okay straight away..even happier !! on cloud nine adi.. i was so excited about it !! even KarMun said i went sorta too excited about this plan..haha! cant blame me rite? i am really into this lor..yeah !!

After that, i talked to Puan Lim (pk koko) about this after school hours n she said NO!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! u could actually hear the glass of this dream shattering..its like ahh!! so happy ! the next minute ..two-alphabet-word got me disappointed..!! ahh!! Pn.Lim didnt allow me to organize it and for other school’s students to enter SMKSS and to be the school host..haihxx!!! big sighxx!!! so sad la …disappointed la.. aiyooooh~~~!somemore my mom started scolding me cos i always do school stuff and not revising !! argh! i DID revise la..i got study la..its just that u ppl didnt see or notice only la.. haihx! nvm ler..i study also not for u all to see rite ? ahahaha…n my mom wants me to retire earlier from SU because SPM is nearer…sighx!she is scolding me adi ..aiyooh~~~~ sighx..but how can i just retire like that..Puan Goh wants me to pray about the new batch of SU committee members before appointing them.so, ok la …pray la.. still praying about it but i am still blur about it !! who is gonna lead the new batch of committee members next year ?!?!?!?!?!?! hmmm….-blur- !! totally la.. cannot simply choose wan okay…this club exist not only JUST A CLUB..not just another club that u can simply join to get your ko-kurikulum marks la..maybe im describing too much about this but this is how i feel about SU..this is God’s fan club, if i were to put it in my words..this a place where Christian teachers and students can come together n fellowship !! to interact, to pray, to unite, to praise and worship..etc!! haih..this is how i take SU as..hmm..i know la! im into SU ..but really lor.. i love SU!! muaxx!!!! huggxx!! i love the ppl in it.. !!

hmm..back to the prayer day thingy..so..yea la..after hearing out everyone’s problems and struggles..we prayed for each other.. i prayed for Li Yan, she prayed for me..then i announced about the Combined SCF meeting in FGA on 18th August..n i told them that this is an unofficial visit..we will attent it unofficially..means without teacher (pn.Goh not around..) and without permission letters..yeah!! haha..but thats for u ppl..but for me ..i feel terrible la!! i feel so bad !! i feel horrible !! im like one of those ppl who are organizing this..another boss is " u know who u are.. dont deny it .."..so yea la.. im involved in this but my mom n my teacher dont know that im involved in organizing it..Pn.Lim dont allow us to use smkss’s name as a school organizer/school host.. so, i wont use la.so.. this is sort of a friendly unofficial kinda Christian get-together-n-unite meeting..hehe..not match-making meeting k !! haih..so, there will be like 8 schools more or less attending this thing..expecting about 80 ppl or less lor ..if got more, im gonna freak out !!God, help !!!ahhhh!! im a public freak !! i shiver when im at the front..weird leh .. heh heh .. so, ya la ..n my another boss is sick now..hopefully he will be okay be then..if not, i lagi gonna freak out !! ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!calm down girl…pray !!! n have faith !! ok..good… =)

hmmm..wat else is there that i can write about .. ah yes !! my hair !! hahah..i love it man ..! short hair rocks !! haha..dont need to tie it anymore.. dont need to worry whether its messy or not.. hehe..its short n easier to manage.. haha..! yeah !! yala..mane were shocked to see me in school the next day.. it was a tuesday la.. its like u went to beratur in front of ur block as usual..then nearly all the people around u just turn their head n stare at you like u are an alien .. it kinda freaked me out la..its like they are asking among themselves.. "Is that a new girl in our school?!?!" i was like aiyooh! i mean.. double aiyoohh!!~~~hahaha..yala..many ppl said its good..but for me, as long as it is easier to manage it’ll do !! haha..i cannot tahan anymore long hair,….i dont wanna tie it up..its heavy cos i got ALOT of hair.. believe me.. its ALOT..haha..so, now its short!!haha..its short !! haahahah..ok..i shall calm down now..ahaha..den went to tuition n my former school’s friends said i look like poni..haha..poni, they called me Poni’s clone..Poni Number Two..haha!! wat la.. but ya la ..dont need to tie up anymore.. haha! hmmm..i think i mention that alot times adi lor..im having probs adi ..ahaha..nvm ..

hmmm…so..prayer request : Combined SCF meeting on 18/8/06 and my another Boss who is not feeling well.. ahh!! please get well SOON…i really dont know what to do if u dont turn up on that day.. i cant handle all by myself.. really wan… sobs..sobs..and also pray for my cf !! pray for Malaysia !! yeah !! yippee !! hehe…suddenly i so excited pulak..something must be wrong with me .. haha..!

SPM : im scared la..everyone studying like crazy adi.. i study too but not as crazy as those boys in my class lor..looking at them really scares me..hmm..well, shall pray about it too.. hehe ..haih ..

gtg liao.. pray!pray!pray!pray!! *ya da ya da ya da ya da ya da ya da ….*hehe…
good nite peeps! will be back soon !! n for those ppl who contributed their efforts, time and money for SU’s Hari Pameran..thank you so much !! it is a success for us although we didnt win .. thanks alot leh ppl..couldnt have got everthing done if it werent for you people and God.. hehe ..thanks God !!! muaxx!!!! Thanks for everything.. i miss Pameran..haha..i took home "The Angel" which Shaun drew for David n which KarMun took home to paint it..its almost as tall as me.. its pweeetttyy!! haha..so, The Angel is with me…hehe.. so happy !! haha..got angel .. haha.. anyway.. thanks alot people !! muaxx!!

*sorry for any typing error..*

- mel out -