fReNLy fR3aK

hmm..its kinda not me to talk about this stuff in open..but anyway..just wanna share something with u guys who r reading this…true love? apa tu true love? what is the charcterstics of having true love?well..look at the list below…this might help coz u know lar..teenagers.. young adults…youngsters..love here n there..

1.Patience
2.Kindness
3.not envious
4.not boastful
5.not proud and not rude
6.not self-seeking
7.not easily angered
8.keeping no record of wrongs
9.rejoicing in truth
10.always protecting
11.always trusting
12.always hoping
13.always persevering
14.love never fail!

Well..what u guys think about this true love thingy?This is the perfect love amongst human beings…cool huh?hmm…i think i’ll share something else maybe more interesting for ya all..so..c ya…take care dudes!

Don’t

Don’t care so much for me,
I may get used to it.
Don’t come so near to me,
I may not be able to detach from it.
Don’t put so much faith in me,
I may not be able to handle it.
Don’t touch me the way you do,
I may not be able to get over it.

Don’t become a part of my life,
Coz without you, I won’t be able to live it.
Don’t make me fall for you,
I may not be able to fall out of it.
Don’t come into my life,
If you have to leave one day.
Don’t give me the hope,
That it’s forever you are gonna stay.

Coz love is an emotion
I won’t be able to hide,
When love isn’t reciprocated with love,
It hurts deep down inside.
Don’t start something
That I won’t be able to end.
Don’t make me believe
That you can be more than a friend.

Coz at the end of it all,
I don’t wanna hear you say,
That,” I’m sorry,”
“ but I never felt the same way!”

p/s : have been going thru some saddening moments in life these days..have been thinking alot too..but those thoughts r goin out of da way..hmm..frens ? cool…they r cool..i love frens..but its hard to find one whom u can share everything u have with..the frenship love,memories n everything la..its truly hard to find true frenship..maybe there isnt any in this world..can u tell me ?

Feelings of the heart,
Something that is hard,
Something that cannot be planed,
Something that is difficult to understand.

I do not understand,

I do things that can be planed,

But this has come to me,

It has gone to everyone and now me.

Something new,

Something weird,

Something foreign,

Something different.

I tried denying,

It has sent people crying,

I don’t wish to yield to it,

I don’t want to feel it.

I can’t hold it any longer,

I’ve ask help from another,

Advised to receive it,

But I still don’t want to admit it.

I thought time can make things go away,

But this stayed with me day to day,

Sometimes I wished to tell the truth of this,

Sometimes I wanted to say this:

I’ve waited all my life,

To cross this line,

To the only thing that’s true,

So I will not hide,

It’s time try,

Anything to be with you,

All my life I’ve waited,

This is true.

I’ve wanted to say this,

But I don’t dare to,

Thinking that I’m just making a fool,

Or maybe it’s just because:

I’m weak,

It’s true,

Cause I’m afraid to know the answer,

Cause my heart keeps falling faster.

I don’t know what to do,

A part of me wished that it would go away,

Another part wished to fall to,

The Feelings of The Heart.

+ special thks to yuen peng for sending me this poem..lurvee it !! +

Hmmm…its been quite some time since I ever updated my blog..lolx.busy busy busy..holidays isnt really holidays for me..y ? coz I haven really been taking some time off studies..i really want to enjoy this holidays before its over btu the thing is im scared  n nervous of the upcoming spm next year..haihx..call me crazy or whatever..but I reallyam scared n nervous abt it although it’s a long way to go..seeing my 17year old frens facing spm this year is kinda scary..some juz relax n wont study (smart ppl like dat wan..haha !), some ppl would bury their heads in books n nots to make it thru this “SPM WAR”..lolx..they made it thru coz they r smart n they study..but things weren’t d same for me..haih..study study study read read read..but no difference.. apa macam pun..i takut spm I next year..kalau I din do well in it or get straight A’s den its all over for me..i cant go college..i can either go form 6 or matriculation..haihx..the best for me is matriks..but hard to get it wan leh..coz its meant mainly for malays oni wat..haihx..i chinese susah 1 2 get leh..haih..dunno wat will happen to my life in d future..argh! I dun care ! just leave it to God..

Holiday oso not like holiday for me..worked during d first week of november..earned a little..but it shud be enuf for my holiday spendings..lol..anyone wanna spend me a movie ?haha..lolx.contact me if u r willing..lolx.narnia is coming !narnia is coming !yeah !yeah !cant wait for it man!seems a great adventorous movie..hehe..besides working for only a week at my uncle’s clinic..the only thing I did was sleeping, watching tv, n going up n down to kasturi for tuitions n revision classes..haih..but most of the time im not at home..either im not at home the whole day till evening..or im at home whole day..so guys n gals, if u r trying to contact me at home n alwiz cant get me..im really sorry but I memang not at home..haha.im hanging around somewhere in kl or kasturi..lol.

Besides all this there is one little situation dat im alwiz in..which is (drum rolls effect)….wala! im sick !man! dats wat im in now..sick sick sick..haih..y I alwiz sick wan..if I sick oso nvm ler..but my pc oso sick..kena virus..man!dunno how to fix it..reformatting it is the last thing I ever do to my pc..nooooo!!!!I love my pc..! cannot reformat it! All my stuff will be goneeeee…nooooooooooo….! haih..who lar so bad go n send virus to me..terrible lar..my pc kena virus..now dat im sick..dunno how to ‘kao dim’ this pc of mine..haih.y ler I alwiz sick wan..fever..no cough but my throat hurts a lot man !!really hurt a lot!my neck oso waliao…pain like ‘…’hopefully I dun get my tonsilities again..if not, im in deep trouble lo! Btw, guys..tonsilities is not a normal sorethroat..but its worst..tonsilities happen when d two lumps at my throat is swolleh n has white ulcers..haih..u imagina urself la..normal sorethroat is juz swollen lumps in ur throat..but tonsilities is red swollen + many white ulcers on those lumps..so its serious la..haihz..doctor once told me to go for an operation to get rid of that lump n my throat..but the things is : I might have my voice change to be more manly..n I cant eat anything for d first three days lying in hospital..just imagine how much weight I will lose if I din eat for three days..haihx..so till now..no operation for me..no way man !so just pray dat my throat wont be infected with tonsilities..then it will save all the trouble..

Actually I planned to post abt my working experience in d clinic..but somehow..type type type..den Kaboom!power failure…all my “hardwork” on dat post vanished just like dat..man!got fed up n just wont type abt it..long story though..but learned quite a lot stuff in thruout his experience..haha..

So…anyone wanna spend me a movie..lol! I sponsor d popcorns ? wakaka..bleks :p oh yes! Before I ever forget again..ATTENTION ! HEAR YE HEAR YE !

            There will be a xmas presentation specially brought to all of ya by my youth chuch (youth church of Full Gospel Assembly) n this time’s presentation is gonna be awesome  n funny too !its not gonna be boring..n I will gurantee u for dat..lolx..come n watch :

           “Once upon a Love Story “

            Dates : 17^th dec             :6.00pm

                        22th n 23th dec :6.30 (reception) 8pm (presentation)

                        25^th dec             :8am & 11am (presentation)

            now the thing is on d 17^th dec is not only d xmas presentation but also youth rally at d same time…so guys n gals! U dun wanna miss this..come n enjoy urselves..u wont regret it..its gonna be a blast ! soo….dun miss it !

btw..this is a honest frenly apologization.. ks…really really sorry for wat had happen at my condo..i noe u hear me say sorry alot times adi..but still…sorry la..hehe..n erm..if u want some $ for d saman..juz tell me ler..i will give coz i think i shud give..its not fair 4 ya to carry this burden alone since i started all this mess..lol..hope u will read this …

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