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i named this junk yard because i havent been updating my blog for a super long time already..hmm..so many things to do..so many things to complete..so many datelines..so many stuff!!!!!!! argh!! ..ahh..nvm..we shall go in detail later..

Goodbye peeps..thats what i have been saying lately..dont get me wrong..im not gonna suicide..instead..some people in my life just left..example..my teacher, mr.ravindran..wait..it should be Sir Ravindran..n my childhood friends..they r a family actually..okay..it’s the Goh family..i known then like what..since kindergarden..but my mom knows them even before i was born if im not mistaken..hmm..so sad to see them leave ..though im not really that close to each one of them..hmm..other than saying goodbyes..i just feel so totally out n frus la..i wanna be out of all these..i know studies are for good..i admit it..i like to look at books..i like colourful stuff..i wanna read!! read! read! Read! but how can i ? so many things to do..n myself> im dont have self discipline..sigh..

Sir Ravindran..he is a good man..he is a honourable dignified man..he deserves all of out respect..those two robbers shouldnt do this to him..they r evil!!i really hope they will surrender themselves..they just done something horrible…haih..i think many of us read the newspaper last monday reporting that a teacher was killed while trying to protect himself from a robbery..i’ll say : he is a brave man..he died as a hero..he had done so much for our school…it is a big lost for all of us..i just pray that his family will be in peace n comfort..hmm..i wont go into details about my teacher cos he is longer with us..i dont think its appropiate that we talk about someone who is no longer here..may he rest in peace..

okay..back to the God family..yea..they left for australia tonight..i actually planned out a farewell dinner with Wee Jim last night..it was a totallt last minute thing..hmm..his time was actually fully taken up ..all the nights..we couldnt do it in the first place but hey! he actually missed another dinner to be attend this one..well, thanks alot Jim..! it was a gathering of the good-old-days..primary school peeps..there were about 13 of us..i think..Wee Jim,Cherish, Elaine,Joshua Ang, Josh’s taiwan friend, Josiah, Dominic,Yen Han, Anna, Teng Jian, Shawn,Meng Hon n me..it was okay ler..i was so scared that it would turn out good..hmm..but it was okay..Jim : all the best in australia n i hope u will adapt well there since the lifestyle n culture kat sana different from m’sia..hehe..do come back cos we want Function-z..Aunty Esther : thanks alot for your piano teaching..thank you so much..i know i let u down many time..not exactly a good student like my bro:Joshua..but still, thank you so much!i appreciate your efforts and cares…Sue Anne : a smart girl..thats what everyone says she is..well, i admit that she is REALLY smart..a genius..she is a good leader too.. Wee Li : a gifted guy in music..really good at drums..Wee Tyr : haha..this little boy..quite naughty wan when he was younger..haha..but now, grown up adi lor..tai ko chai lor..haha..although i dont really know them closely but..still feel sad cos they left for australia..wont be seeing them for a long time..hmm..sobs..sobs..wee jim was in the same primary school n kindergarden with me, anna n tj..hmm..gonna miss them alot!!

the steamboat dinner was okay..we didnt let jim pay for his share..hah! ;p took alot of pics..met back those friends from primary school..wah..cherish still same:pretty..shawn : woah! he really grown alot! more mature n stylish leh..haha..yen han : kor, u really eat alot man! but thanks alot kor ! u r so kind! hehe..teng jian: will u stop leaving the cat alone??come on la..poor thing k..look at its eyes also u know the cat is hungry k ? so bad ar u still wanna kick it..n ar, cats where got eat yam wan ? cats eat fishy stuff..like FISH! haha..meng hon is still the same thin n funny guy..josiah..haih..still look mischievious but actually he is innocent wan..lolx.." dont judge the book by its cover" haha.. dominic still has his sense of humour..haha..! joshua ang, u really grown alot!wahh..so tall..ur fren looks cool..oh ya! forgot to mention that i actually did feel short that night..everyone else was like so tall..i am so short ..expecially beside kor ( yh)haih..speaking of brothers, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHEAK FOONG !! i am glad that all of us met up last night cos it was good for me..nothing special but at least we get to meet each other back..hmm..

anyway..school has been okay n not okay at the same time..spm is getting nearer..i am feeling the pressure n tension already..i wanna study!!! i wanna retire from S.U. its not that i dont want to handle it anymore but i think its time someone take over me lor..i have to grow out of it somehow right ? God, please give me a successor..please? hmm..i know i am not doing a good job at it..i know i am not handling it well.. i am blur! totally blur n lost about all of these..what la to do..the members r always standing there like a wood..not moving..not praising or worshiping You..i feel bad, God.don’t they ever love You..or thank You for the things that u’ve done..? hmm..God, i know i am not in the right position to speak of all these.Please forgive me..forgive me..help me..i dont know what to do..guide me..sobs.sobs.sobs… :’(

Friends..they make such an impact in my life..i love them all..i love everyone! but i wish to see them coming to You..that’s more important..i wanna be the tool that You use..i wanna be the item that You use to pour out Your spirit n presence n love..God..i wanna be used by You..hmm…please take over my life..!recently, one of my friend is troubled by love..hey, maybe u r reading right now.. i dont know..anyway..i just wish that they understand that studying is more important than anything right now..its now about getting a gf..yes, u feel sad, lost n frustrated about the things that happens around you..but should you push your feeling aside n concentrate on the things that u shud be more important..eg. studies, future, family..yeah..i know its hard..but if others could do it, y cant u ? i know u will get over things like this..u need time..n try not to think so much la.it wont help you much if u think alot..really..trust me..i know wan..i’ve been in it before..your mind could really play alot tricks with u..even when u r not aware of it..ur mind could ‘overtake’ u..u shud be controling what u r thinking cos…IT’S YOUR BRAIN!! YOURS .. U PUNYA ..not anyone else..its in you..you shud be controlling it..not other ppl..anyway..tears are meant to be flown  out..not kept in or hold back..you should now hold back your tears when u wanna let it out..hmm..sometimes, i just wanna knock your head la..i just cannot understand why some people cannot get on with their lifes without a girlfriend or a boyfriend..why r people so into it ? what’s the fun ? i dont see any..so many people are treating emotion, feelings n love like its not important..hey,let me tell u peeps.. it is important..n dont play with other people’s emotions..

sharon n ji chen..sorry ! sorry! sorry! sorree for the things i have caused between u two..sharon, im so sorry i caused the article to be missing! sorry! i really didnt notice until i wanted to find it n type it out..im sorry..hmm..i think i should learn a lesson from this : i wont simply lend others my things..for safety..come on la..i lend other ppl my things.. all missing..:my ruler didnt come back to me after i lend it to a guy,the same thing happen to other guys as well because my liquid paper is missing! my eraser! my pens!etc…now is the article! argh! …. =.=///

what else to write ..?actually i got many things to write but i cant remember them now..oh ya! shaun.. u really r different today..all of sudden, u r so joyous, so happy, so talkative, so cheer-y..so..ahh! u know what..u r different..! im glad u r.. shak, u owe me a mcflurry! haha…ahh!nvm..forget about it..i wanna watch superman returns..n just my luck..hehe..anyone wanna belanja me ? i’ll get the cokes n popcorns..(although im having mouth ulcers now..pain oh ..~~ ) ..

*pics of the steamboat dinner will be published soon..but not now..gotta sleep now..hehe ..i miss you people out there..in school, church, family, penang..etc..primary school peeps! smkbbsp teachers n friends..muaxx! i love u all..though some of u might not feel so..hehe*