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hmmm..holidays are up! it started already… ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!! but im GROUNDED..u read that ?? grounded…. ! sob sob sob! how can this be ? haih …i wanna go out! i wanna watch Garfield!haih…..poor me .. haih ..

okie..back to the main purpose of me psoting this blog. . its been very werid but fascinating experience for me since standard 6 .. i have been having dreams.. yes.. dreams when im sleeping at night…im not talking about the nightmares that many of us could have..im not talking also about the fantasy-like dreams which some of us are having too.. im actually referring to dreams.. which i think comes from God.. hmm..get what im trying to say over here? u see..when i was in Standard 6 .. i have these 3 dreams at different nights..but its all quite similiar..i was in 6 Kuning..2nd good class at that moment..i was the ketua kelas..Puan Rosnani was my class teacher.. she was very loveable la.. very funny n good teacher.. very rajin wan.. she taught me BM..(if i didnt remember wrongly..)so..there was one night where i dreamt that Pn.Rosnani was playing the guitar in the classroom..n my whole class was really worshipping God.. they were ALL singing PRAISE SONGS to Jesus!! that was really incredible for me..its not 1 time i dreamt it.. it was three times!! the other two times were quite similiar with the first ones.. there was once when i dreamt that some of my schoolmates whom i dont know well were taking me to one of the Standard 6 classrooms..n when i entered it ..again..i saw the whole classroom worshipping God.. it is really AMAZING!!it is supernatural lar to me .. but i am really not sure whether it is really from God or not.. i told my mom about these "weird" dreams that im having..n she said it is definitely from God.. that was in Standard 6..

now..back to this year… 2006!! hmm..new life..new MELODY..new resolutions..new heart..new school..new frens..new surrounddings..new responsibilites..overall..almost everything is NEW!!so..yea lar..finalyl came back to God after the down year of my life - form4 ..wouldnt wanna talk about form4…but in these recent months..i got super weird dreams again..n this time..u really gotta agree with me .. its not an ordinary thing to experience..this year.. its been an amazing year for me so far..n i still believe that this year is  gonna end in a different way than other previous years in my life.. because this year..i had God beside me all the time ..n i can feel Him ..even beside me right now..n i totally fell in love with God up to the point where i can say .. i wanna stay singel for the rest of my life ..just for Him..hehe..ah yes ! u didnt read wrongly n i didnt type anything wrong too.. i really wanna stay focus n single for the rest of my life just for God.. hehe..n He approved it as well.. im happy about it! but as i looked back in my life ..i had two brothers actually.. one was Joshua ( currently 15 years old..)..n another is Justin..he passed away when i was 11 years old..he was only 3 years old at that time..okay..i wont go into futher details about it.. but if anyone really curious about it..come look for me n ask me personally..

There was once when i just felt like meeting back Justin ..i know he’s in heaven now..im glad he’s in a safe n good n happy place..im glad that Jesus is looking after him now.. thank you Jesus!so..yea lar.. there was once when i really miss Justin..i wanted to see him face to face..i wanted to meet him .. i wanted to know how he looked like .. i told God about it..i told God that i hoped to meet Justin again..but suprisingly one night, i fell asleep in my locked-room with the lights on.. it was around 2am when i just woke up out of sudden ..i turned to my right side i opened my eyes a little.. i didnt see a ghost.. i saw an angel…yea..ANGEL! A REAL LIFE ANGEL..WITH WINGS..he had blonde hair ..beautiful n good looking .. real wan!! he had wings .. he was wearing white robes..then he held his left hand out to me .. i was in tears..not tears of happiness..but tears of being terharu..touched..n i turned away .. i continued crying in bed..n that is the reason why i want to bring home "the angel" which Shaun drew for Ji Chen n Kar Mun coloured it for Hari Pameran in my school..it reminds me of the Angel who i met..

now..just recently when i was in the middle preparations for the Combined School Christian Fellowship meeting which was held last Friday..i was scared ..i was unsure whether to continue doing it ..ahh! i think i talked about this already in my last blogpost..this is where Rose talked about the Chicken Little thing..remember ? hmm…n it was just a few days before the Combined SCF thing..i was afraid of what would happen on that Fri .. i was worried ..super worried!! very very worried!!i was asking God to take control of everything..n i was still super worried.. then came one night when i sleeping (duh! dreams only happen when u are sleeping…), i dreamt that it was during the end times..in the dark times..when i was in a classroom (but not in my school..)..my bio teacher, pn lee was teaching in front.. the whole room was quite dark.. cos end times mar..i was sitting there in my place doing my work .. n JiChen was in front of me..yea.. JiChen..he was in my dream..i know thats weird but dont lar go n brag about it in front of him !! haih..so.. yea lar .. he was doing his work..i was doing mine..until he turned his chair towards me n then we started talking lar..we were talking about God n our praying experiences..n yea..he said something like this : "u know ar..when me n my frens got together to pray..my feet hurts..it was like having pins n needles under your feet.." n i was like "oh yea.. ? but when my fren prayed, she felted almost the same thing too.. her feet hurt too..etc" ..n then he said this to me .. i remembered it very clearly.. "when i together with my frens n prayed..God was there with us because He promised us that when two or three gather together in His name, He will be there..BUT when u (melody) prayed..even by yourself..God is already with you.. "

notice the number difference when Jichen said that in my dream..its amazing how God can speak to me even in my dreams..hmm..its really incredible!its wonderful..it assured me that He will take care of things on Fri.. n in my life.. that he will take care of me .. n He will always be there for me .. thank you God !! hugx!!

*ah yes!! now that i have the opportunity to write about this..for those of you ppl reading this..n you know about the teasings that you heard or said before about me n matthew, matthew n jas..etc..i know its just teasing..i know its for the fun of it..i know its suppose to be a joke..but come on la ..jokes also got limits wan lar.. dont lar go n teasing ppl all the time until ppl get mad or feel irritated about it.. dont always go around teasing about me n matthew..or matthew n jasmine..come on lar… poor us lar ! three of us kena only..then u all leh ? not fair lar.. the relationship among the three of us is just basically GOOD FRIENDS!other than that, i will call matthew, "daddy" n jas will call him "daddy" too..n he will either call us " panda, pig or good daughters.." ..thats it..nothing more than that.. we are just brothers n sisters in Christ.. nothing hanky panky going on between us..there you go! there’s the truth..accept it or just blah!u can tease but u know yourself the limits..i hope what i mentioned here is very clear n understandable..n if i ever said something that could have hurt your feelings..im sorree!! i apologise..please forgive me n dont hold any grudges against me..God says to forgive.. hehe.. *

i guess thats it for now.. take care ppl..i love u all!!happy holidays…n study hard!! n pray for me .. im grounded…!!oh ya! thanks ppl for the comments that you guys have left me..thank you! its so nice n happy for me to know that ppl actually read my blog.. so yeah!! yippee!! please continue to leave your comments.. hehe… i love u ppl!! muaxx!!

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!! today’s the day!! hurray! it was awesome..it was amazing..it was superb..it was stupendous..etc..!!i was so super worried that it wouldnt turn out well but look at it today..it was super great!! God is great!! no..He is more than great!! He is marvelous!!ahhh…i love u God !!

for those who are wondering what im talking about..lemme ceritakan in details..u see..3 weeks ago, my friend,matthew n i decided to plan this combined school christian fellowship meeting where cf from different schools come together n fellowship, have fun, praise n worship, pray n etc..n it was like really 3 weeks ago..its a short time ( for me la..) to plan for this kinda big event..so yeala..Matthew did all the paperwork..thks daddy!!heh heh..but i help u type wan leh since u were coughing terribly..*cough*cough*  but nevermind..u take all the credit since u so "susah-susah" ask your teachers all sign..haha..but the way you got them to sign was cool la..haha..but..so bad ar u ..so cunning.. haha! neway, yeah..back to the main topic..we called up alot of the cf presidents from different schools..we invited them..many turned down our invitation..sad la that time..n somemore i was very unsure about continuing this programme cos my mom is scolding me for not studying n for doing stuff for my cf la..then the story continue when i really asked God whether to continue this plan/idea/dream anot…i was feeling so bad cos its like im doing un-illegal things behind my mom’s back (my mom warned me not to do any major event after Hari Pameran..she wants me to study..)..then the next day, i went to YC as usual n it was during the 1st service when pastor Rose came up on stage in the middle of praise n worship session n told us about her seeing this super cute chicken little character on a badge saying "WHO U CALLING CHICKEN?"..she continued talking about doing the things of God n trusting Him n obeying Him all at the same time..she kinda challenged all the YCians to take the step of faith to obey God whether in carrying out His plans for us or being the person He wants us to be or even doing a big event although we have doubts about it.. when she said it, it hit me la!God was talking to me..He just answered me the doubts that i had..so,on the spot, i told God that i will continue the Combined SCF meeting..then everyday i called my friends to invite them to this meeting, planed this n that..n mom is screaming at me cos she doesnt know that this meeting is organized by her own daughter n i am using the house fon alot la..haih..moms..

it was very sad for me when my friend n i invited so many cf but many didnt turn up..haih.. =(  but all things work for the good of the Lord right? hehe..we actually had alot stuf to prepare lor..there was ice-breakers where we dont know what to play cos we were expecting so many ppl n we dont wanna let anyone feel alienated..then at first we got one of the school cf to do praise n worship..they said yes in the first place ..but after 1 week, said tak nak datang pulak..haih..so in 2 weeks, matt n i had to search for a band to play on that day..funny la cos it was a Monday(i think so..) when matt called me up n told me good news : he found a guitarist n pianist. haha!! really laughing my heart out that time..i also found a guitarist n pianist..haha! wat la…hahahah!but we dont have a drummer..haih..so the song leader who was eventually karmen, she played the drums instead n shaun took over as the worship leader.. annabelle back-up..my bro, josh on the piano, tuck wai on the acoustic guitar n wei wen on the electric guitar..so practically, they had their band practice 3 times in a week before today!!im truly amazed by their efforts n sacrifice la..thanks so much band!! hugx!but booking the place for us to practice was totally in a mess at first!i thought we ahd a place to practice but it wasnt booked..cos i didnt know n my pastor didnt book it for me.. so, on the spot itself..i was in church..the band members were already with me..n we had no place to practice..Judah n Rose wasnt around..so..i dont know who to turn to to book la..den finally ..miracle! my church elder..Elder Ang n Mrs Ang..they were walking out of the office n they heard what i was facing la..then Mrs And approached me n asked me what was happening..i explained to her that the guard dont allow us to practice n the place isnt booked 1 week earlier yet..so she asked me to fill up a form n she signed it for me instantly..i was like super-shock la..woah!n other church leaders who were there was like shock also cos they wasnt really keen on approving my band to practice in church since we havent booked to place yet..den out of sudden, Mrs Ang came n just sign the letter for me..haha! stunned at what God can do instantly when i faced problems.. i love you God !! muaxx!! so..yeah! we got the place to practice right away after the application form was approved!woohoo!!all that happened last friday..then came the next day, they practice again ..*another last minute booking* then last wednesday, they practised again..hmm..matt, thanks for coming n doing the PA..

lemme tell ya about wednesday night prayer meeting..i went to school as usual till recess time, went home early, went back to SMKBBSP to get my certs etc. , went to church for the band practice n went home at about 6pm..den came night time when i already so super-exhausted..but nevermind…went for the prayer meeting in church..n then suddenly prayer request..Rose told everyone about this Combined SCF meeting n i was shock la cos i didnt tell anyone that there is this kinda meeting going on … n then, after prayer..many came up to me n asked this n that..some of the leaders decided to come..hehe.. thanks ppl!! n then today….

i was so super worried n nervous n scared… couldnt study whole day in school..i was freaking out..i was shivering alot! ahhhh…but nevermind la..i told myself that God will be in control.. He will take care of everything..trust in Him ..etc. after school, quickly rushed to church with the worship team..they started practising n i quickly got the sound equipment box from Level3..set up all the mic etc. dunno how to set up ler..!!"daddy"……!!!!mom(real one) made sushi rice n bought bananas for us..everyone came about 1.15pm - 1.30pm..so, we started at 1.30pm as planned..had ice-breaker where matt handled it..we played "hi one dot" game..some of them got 1 dot of toothpaste on their face..2dots,3dots..etc..haha! they had their "facial treatment"..lolx..Liyan pulak sapu toothpaste on my face..so, i sapu back on her la..lolx..matt also..lolx..then, i sneaked up to rose n sabo her with toothpaste..hehe.. hahaha!!im so evil!Rose is my youth pastor by the way..means she is my boss la ..lolx..then we continued with praise n worship where Shaun song-lead..etc. they were great la..:) although karmen was very nervous at the drums but it was okay for me…she actually missed a few beats but it was not bad la..God’s presence was there!!that is more important..the people were really worshipping..touched~~~~ then came games where we played Team Fotress..we got the guys n girls to pair up..the girls had balloons on their ankles n the guys had a newspaper stick to protect his ‘wife’ (as mentioned by matt..haih..lolx..)n her balloon n also his legs from kena whack by other ‘couples’ ..lolx..kinda fun to see them play la..lolx..the people at the back were like "huh?" but overall, we had fun la.. =)

after that we had s short prayer session…they got into groups of 5 - 6person..they got to know each other n started praying.. after the last amen, the anointed Pastor Rose came up to speak..hehe..me, matt n kristy were in the hospitality room to prepare the drinks..after that, we came out to listen to the preacher..She did an altercall..more of a step of faith thingy la..but just stand up instead of coming to the front..the band played "Our God is an Awesome God" softly..a few stood up after that, we closed in prayer n makan!! yay! the sushi rice was first to finish..waliao..the fried mee hoon prepared my jasmine’s mom was good…but it was alot!! super alot! so..in the end..i took the leftovers home so that my mom can bring to her home fellowship..hehe..smart leh ..? hehe..dont mind ya,jas..hehe..but it was really good.. haha! finally, i get to sabo matthew with the colouful string spray that i bought the day before today..hehe..haha! c la..thats wat u get when u put toothpaste on my face n hair..haha..evil me..but yea la..hahahahahahahaha!! bleks!=p many of us smelt like mint..lolx..cos its Darlie toothpaste..after makan n there were only saint gabriel’s n sentosa’s students..we took pic together-gether..hehe..oh ya! i wanna apologise to everyone if i had ever made u mad during the event..maybe i said something wrong or whatever la..lolx..sorry guys!

so..i guess i’ll end here..ahh!! wat a day…learnt a lot of things thru this event..it was very good.. hmmm..mmm..good!hehe..take care people..! special thanks to God who took control of things n took care of everything when i am freaking out sometimes..lolx..sorry God.. 8D n a milion thanks to Matthew n Jasmine for all things that they had done for today’s event..thanks daddy-o n sis!!where’s mummy ??lolx..jk.. bleks =p to the worship team, shaun, josh, karmun, wei wen, annabelle n tuck wai..u ppl were awesome!! congrats!!thanks Pastor Rose for speaking..n sorry for all the trouble .. hehe..i had fun sabo-ing u.. ngek ngek ngek..hahaha!Liyan,Wei Jan n Anna ..thanks alot for your help..for leading the sentosarians to chapel n the OHP..thanks alot ppl! ahhh….i love u all so much!! im so proud of u ppl!! hugxx! lets celebrate!! please leave me a comment for those of you who came just now..tq! take care n God bless..good night.. zzzz…

by,
melody = suckling piglet (as told by swee keat, shak n matthew..haih =.=lll)

haih..actually adi second time i type this wan..bengang betul! type so long adi.. den dunno wat happen till the page changed into another page n then everything i type is GONE !! argh! ..nvm .. sabar..

So, yala..i think its time we get into a serious session of prayer , praise and worship etc. in Scripture Union (SU).we had alot of things..Welcome Day, AGM,Talk Day, Easter and Good Friday, Postal Bible Quiz, Sister’s Day, Brother’s Day, PnW Day n finally… Prayer Day !! today !! hmm..we started late actually beacuse most of the morning session members tengah makan kat kantin, teacher was bz with other things n i wasnt aware of the time that was passing by fast..haih..im so blur!!luckily my bro reminded me about the time..heh heh..

   Everyone got into small groups of 4 or 5 to pray..i told them to pray for one another n for everything under the sun..hehe..cos u c rite.. we really need prayer in our daily lives lor.. rite ? so, i told them to pray for the school,school teachers,our future, SCF, for our country’s leaders even though many of us dont know exactly what they do individually..hehe..typical Malaysian teens..dont worry! im one of them too..haha! =) anyway.. yala..

   There were Li Yan, Kar Wah, Mei Fang, Wei Jan, Annabelle and Anna (n me too!!) ..we started hearing the problem which Li Yan is facing..then we continued hearing from Kar Wah, Wei Jan, Mei Fang, Annabelle and Anna..hmm..ok la..i had to give in in the end..didnt want to share out my problems since time is running out n i wasnt really keen on sharing problems semenjak peristiwa itu pada masa silam saya..hmm..no point fuguring out what im trying to say because none of u knows what it is.. except like only 4 person in cluding me n God..hehe..so, practically only two of my friends know about it..its not something which im proud at..not something that i could be happy about so.. yala..wont tell out..n ya. at the prayer session, i mentioned about the upcoming Combined School Christian Fellowship meeting which is only TWO weeks away..ahh!! so fast ! no la ..actually , this is a last minute (for me) plan thingy la..okay, i have to admit here..i AM scared, afraid n worried about it !! this is a first for me..its big kay..i dont know what to do.. just had this idea of combining a few school’s CF for a small interactive meeting in the beginning of the year..but dont know what school to combine with until i met Jasmine n Matthew..hehe.. thanks alot to the both of you, Jas n Matty-boy..i couldnt have continued this without the both of you ..!! so..yea la..i was chatting with Matt last Sun on9 until this idea suddenly came popped into my brain n we started discussing about it..n until WALA! we ARE doing it!! hurray !! i was so excited about this..so happy !! so nuts n crazy about this..!! cant wait for THE DAY ..!!went to sleep happily..! then , the next day i talked to Puan Goh (CF teacher advisor) about this n she said okay straight away..even happier !! on cloud nine adi.. i was so excited about it !! even KarMun said i went sorta too excited about this plan..haha! cant blame me rite? i am really into this lor..yeah !!

After that, i talked to Puan Lim (pk koko) about this after school hours n she said NO!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! u could actually hear the glass of this dream shattering..its like ahh!! so happy ! the next minute ..two-alphabet-word got me disappointed..!! ahh!! Pn.Lim didnt allow me to organize it and for other school’s students to enter SMKSS and to be the school host..haihxx!!! big sighxx!!! so sad la …disappointed la.. aiyooooh~~~!somemore my mom started scolding me cos i always do school stuff and not revising !! argh! i DID revise la..i got study la..its just that u ppl didnt see or notice only la.. haihx! nvm ler..i study also not for u all to see rite ? ahahaha…n my mom wants me to retire earlier from SU because SPM is nearer…sighx!she is scolding me adi ..aiyooh~~~~ sighx..but how can i just retire like that..Puan Goh wants me to pray about the new batch of SU committee members before appointing them.so, ok la …pray la.. still praying about it but i am still blur about it !! who is gonna lead the new batch of committee members next year ?!?!?!?!?!?! hmmm….-blur- !! totally la.. cannot simply choose wan okay…this club exist not only JUST A CLUB..not just another club that u can simply join to get your ko-kurikulum marks la..maybe im describing too much about this but this is how i feel about SU..this is God’s fan club, if i were to put it in my words..this a place where Christian teachers and students can come together n fellowship !! to interact, to pray, to unite, to praise and worship..etc!! haih..this is how i take SU as..hmm..i know la! im into SU ..but really lor.. i love SU!! muaxx!!!! huggxx!! i love the ppl in it.. !!

hmm..back to the prayer day thingy..so..yea la..after hearing out everyone’s problems and struggles..we prayed for each other.. i prayed for Li Yan, she prayed for me..then i announced about the Combined SCF meeting in FGA on 18th August..n i told them that this is an unofficial visit..we will attent it unofficially..means without teacher (pn.Goh not around..) and without permission letters..yeah!! haha..but thats for u ppl..but for me ..i feel terrible la!! i feel so bad !! i feel horrible !! im like one of those ppl who are organizing this..another boss is " u know who u are.. dont deny it .."..so yea la.. im involved in this but my mom n my teacher dont know that im involved in organizing it..Pn.Lim dont allow us to use smkss’s name as a school organizer/school host.. so, i wont use la.so.. this is sort of a friendly unofficial kinda Christian get-together-n-unite meeting..hehe..not match-making meeting k !! haih..so, there will be like 8 schools more or less attending this thing..expecting about 80 ppl or less lor ..if got more, im gonna freak out !!God, help !!!ahhhh!! im a public freak !! i shiver when im at the front..weird leh .. heh heh .. so, ya la ..n my another boss is sick now..hopefully he will be okay be then..if not, i lagi gonna freak out !! ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!calm down girl…pray !!! n have faith !! ok..good… =)

hmmm..wat else is there that i can write about .. ah yes !! my hair !! hahah..i love it man ..! short hair rocks !! haha..dont need to tie it anymore.. dont need to worry whether its messy or not.. hehe..its short n easier to manage.. haha..! yeah !! yala..mane were shocked to see me in school the next day.. it was a tuesday la.. its like u went to beratur in front of ur block as usual..then nearly all the people around u just turn their head n stare at you like u are an alien .. it kinda freaked me out la..its like they are asking among themselves.. "Is that a new girl in our school?!?!" i was like aiyooh! i mean.. double aiyoohh!!~~~hahaha..yala..many ppl said its good..but for me, as long as it is easier to manage it’ll do !! haha..i cannot tahan anymore long hair,….i dont wanna tie it up..its heavy cos i got ALOT of hair.. believe me.. its ALOT..haha..so, now its short!!haha..its short !! haahahah..ok..i shall calm down now..ahaha..den went to tuition n my former school’s friends said i look like poni..haha..poni, they called me Poni’s clone..Poni Number Two..haha!! wat la.. but ya la ..dont need to tie up anymore.. haha! hmmm..i think i mention that alot times adi lor..im having probs adi ..ahaha..nvm ..

hmmm…so..prayer request : Combined SCF meeting on 18/8/06 and my another Boss who is not feeling well.. ahh!! please get well SOON…i really dont know what to do if u dont turn up on that day.. i cant handle all by myself.. really wan… sobs..sobs..and also pray for my cf !! pray for Malaysia !! yeah !! yippee !! hehe…suddenly i so excited pulak..something must be wrong with me .. haha..!

SPM : im scared la..everyone studying like crazy adi.. i study too but not as crazy as those boys in my class lor..looking at them really scares me..hmm..well, shall pray about it too.. hehe ..haih ..

gtg liao.. pray!pray!pray!pray!! *ya da ya da ya da ya da ya da ya da ….*hehe…
good nite peeps! will be back soon !! n for those ppl who contributed their efforts, time and money for SU’s Hari Pameran..thank you so much !! it is a success for us although we didnt win .. thanks alot leh ppl..couldnt have got everthing done if it werent for you people and God.. hehe ..thanks God !!! muaxx!!!! Thanks for everything.. i miss Pameran..haha..i took home "The Angel" which Shaun drew for David n which KarMun took home to paint it..its almost as tall as me.. its pweeetttyy!! haha..so, The Angel is with me…hehe.. so happy !! haha..got angel .. haha.. anyway.. thanks alot people !! muaxx!!

*sorry for any typing error..*

- mel out -