fReNLy fR3aK

have you ever settle yourself down and have some moments all by yourself, think and ponder upon some questions and mysteries ? - I have. -

have you ever felt that you are alone even though you have many amazing and great(im serious..) people surrounding you everyday ?even at work, at home,in school, in a public area, in your room, at a party, in church or at the library ? - I have..am now..-

have u ever felt like you are in the middle of nowhere but you are always going here n there, attending to the many hussle of life ? have you ever felt as if you are hanging from the silence of brokenness ? - I have -

how about the time you felt like you want to spill every deep hurting secret out but for one moment, you paused,took a deep breath and tell yourself " NO! no one should know about this..this is too much!unfair for them..i can’t….." ? -always-

do you recall the time you feel like jumping off a building or stand at KLCC just to scream your lungs out ?but you cant because a little voice inside of you stops you…

How about a new heavier responsibility and higher expectation being places on your shoulders when you didnt expect it AT ALL ?? And you keep on telling yourself that you can do this WELL…and make other proud / happy of / for you..and another second, you feel so weak all over ! tears rolls down your cheek *blink tears away*puts up that fake cheerful face to hide your weakness*

With added frustration and doubts, you feel like you wanna quit just like that! But the other half of you convinced you to stay and take on the challenge, to be someone better, to walk this earth as a more mature person…

Have you ever been in those situations?

i have….i am now…

**sorry for the serious post i wrote**